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Post OP Day 5 and 6
11 years ago
Friendly reminder that I have moved to 
Kragith this is where you will find all things Kragith and Rkar!
Kragith this is where you will find all things Kragith and Rkar! Ok so yesterday I felt really good, I mean really good. I walked a lot yesterday. Went out and about and was able to do things. Then I got super scared. Well where the intestine sat began to turn into a scabby color. It also stung like a bitch.
Today was OK, and at just that. I woke up feeling about the same as the prior day. But something was wrong. No one seemed to give a fuck about me today. I wasn't helped out of bed, had to stumble to grab things and whatnot as I cannot bend or even lift things on my own (doctors orders, and it fucking hurts to do so) Then I was rode all day shopping for stuff so I could walk. The night came quickly then my mother fucked my day over even more. Pestering me for my medication I said NO and got shit hailed at me. Here is the messed... no FUCKED UP part. Before I said NO to her she came in snatched my pill bottle and grabbed one pill and tried to walk off... I said NO PUT IT BACK. She got angry with me, threw the pill at the wall trying to break it I guess and then told ME to pick it up. (I can't bend over people) I eventually yelled at her then she set the pill as far away from my reach as she could then stared at me wanting me to lean over and pick it up. The entire time belittling me. I yelled at her again because I knew the game she was playing, pill for someone else, fuck you not with that kind of reaction. Then she left in a huff only to return to belittle me more. I spoke up only for her to grab my mouth to shut me up. I swear If any more shit came out of her mouth Im walking out that door on christmas day. Merry Christmas to you Im done. She wrote me a letter asking me to apologize, its so fucked up I'm so done. Don't give a rats ass who the medication was intended for, its my prescription. Was I wrong to say no, cause I sure as hell don't feel like I was. Everything Im saying here is truth. Sure she would manipulate it If she wrote it.
Im out left me know.
This day has added so much stress to my system I about passed out trying to get back on my chair.
Today was OK, and at just that. I woke up feeling about the same as the prior day. But something was wrong. No one seemed to give a fuck about me today. I wasn't helped out of bed, had to stumble to grab things and whatnot as I cannot bend or even lift things on my own (doctors orders, and it fucking hurts to do so) Then I was rode all day shopping for stuff so I could walk. The night came quickly then my mother fucked my day over even more. Pestering me for my medication I said NO and got shit hailed at me. Here is the messed... no FUCKED UP part. Before I said NO to her she came in snatched my pill bottle and grabbed one pill and tried to walk off... I said NO PUT IT BACK. She got angry with me, threw the pill at the wall trying to break it I guess and then told ME to pick it up. (I can't bend over people) I eventually yelled at her then she set the pill as far away from my reach as she could then stared at me wanting me to lean over and pick it up. The entire time belittling me. I yelled at her again because I knew the game she was playing, pill for someone else, fuck you not with that kind of reaction. Then she left in a huff only to return to belittle me more. I spoke up only for her to grab my mouth to shut me up. I swear If any more shit came out of her mouth Im walking out that door on christmas day. Merry Christmas to you Im done. She wrote me a letter asking me to apologize, its so fucked up I'm so done. Don't give a rats ass who the medication was intended for, its my prescription. Was I wrong to say no, cause I sure as hell don't feel like I was. Everything Im saying here is truth. Sure she would manipulate it If she wrote it.
Im out left me know.
This day has added so much stress to my system I about passed out trying to get back on my chair.
Friendly reminder that I have moved to Kragith this is where you will find all things Kragith and Rkar!
Kragith this is where you will find all things Kragith and Rkar! 
And holy crap... sorry to hear about your mother, that's not the kind of thing you should have to deal with, let alone when you're trying to recover. I don't want to make too many assumptions about your mother here, but has she gotten help or anything for that, or does she have a reason to want your medication? The belittling and such (physically shutting you up and placing the pill out of reach) is pretty horrid behavior on her part. And the letter is pretty silly on top of that. I don't think you were wrong to say no, even if it's just a basic painkiller you shouldn't have to defend from someone trying to take your prescribed medication. Really hope you don't have to keep putting up with that kind of treatment. You mentioned you thought about walking out, do you have anywhere to go? Planning on moving out? Just curious, I'd imagine it will take a bit of time until you've recovered enough to do so. Anyways, sorry to hear all that happened, I hope the rest of your recovery goes much smoother and that you can take it easy and enjoy the holidays.
I will try too, as of now I'm sure I'm not getting a penny for Christmas, I don't really care, but she knows I'm on to her now.
Good luck to you and since I've yet to say it try and have a happy holiday!
Thanks! Happy Holidays to you as well!
STEALING your own son's Medication?! Holy SHIT!
Talk to your doc, and keep the meds somewhere only you can get them, like a locked mini safe or soemthing.
Yea... I'm stil hurt by this. When I asked she said it was for my grandmother, I said use Tylenol, not my medication. Her excuse was I just got more. (refil because doctor wants me on double dosages,take 2 every 6 hours as needed.)
I have my medication hidden now. Thing is a while back she accuses my family of her missing medication. Now I know she's the one taking more then she is sopose to. (old wound) She's not the same person I grew up with and it's getting to the point where it hurts to associate with her. Last night was very hard on me. My stress levels have caused me check pain today, like big time.
Has she learned, only time will tell. I'm sure this will become my fault and used against me. Thing is I don't forget things very easily. She knows that.
Your mother has an old wound and she's not the person she used to be? Could she be addicted to painkillers?
I would say so. An "old wound" from my childhood gone full circle. Literally. I don't know why but it's the only thing I can think of. I said something when I was very very young to her that was stupid. I put on a little act.
Just with her health rapidly declining, having RA and needing the painkillers makes her different. The ammount of medication she takes makes me mad. Like I said before, I'm not a medication person. Do I believe she's addicted, yes, but to the extent where they are necessary for her to function. The asking of my stuff was uncalled for. I talked it over today. Bit of admittance. Let's say she won't be asking again.