Well it's officially 2015.

What I wanna say is 2014...Had a bit of a...terrible start due to someone I thought I could love and trust with anything, left me for no good reason, betrayed me, spat on me and then left me in the dirt on a heavy rain day and laughed as it all occurred, while walking away giving me the middle finger. Not to mention I wasn't totally thrilled with what I was doing in College so needless to say bad fucking start furs. But after I grew balls and finally told my parents I really didn't want to do accounting and preferred acting and to my surprise they were real supportive considering the job. That's when things got...a little better. The audition went great, and I got a call 4 HOURS after it happened. So that was a real great boost. But this person that hurt me, yes of course, like most people blinded by love. I still loved them. And was troubled about it....for quite honestly most of this year. I know...a year...pathetic huh? Specially when they didn't give 2 shits about me. But if not for supportive friends and the fact that my acting program is filled with the best professors you can find, I wouldn't have gotten over it probably as fast as I would've. But at the same time I'm not...mad at myself like i used to be. Because yes...I'm an idiot. I loved someone who was Satan's child and I didn't get over it fast. But thanks to friends here, and learning lots about human beings and acting in my program...I realize...yes I may not have social masks that protect me from getting hurt from fuckwads like that. I'm to open. I'm to honest. I'm to vulnerable. But is that really a bad thing? I say no. Maybe in this world yes...but for my job I'm ahead of the game. I had a shit past, and I'm not afraid to bring it to my acting. What happened with that person, I'm not afraid to bring into my acting. I'm a boy and I cry so what? I'm open. Honest. Vulnerable. The way I see it is...if I can't be myself when I'm not onstage....who else am I supposed to be? Why behind a mask? After hearing the countless compliments from my professors who've only known me now for 8 months about what a wonderful person I am and a wonderful actor I'm already becoming. Those are the people that matter. My friends are the people that matter. To the some of you (you know who you are) who have helped me through that rough time...thank you...for your patience...love and everything. And another thanks to others who even if you knew nothing about this...thank you for just...caring and talking to me. Sometimes a simple hello can save a life. Lol I am getting way to deep. But regardless, all I say here is from my heart...see here I go again being all open and vulnerable to possibly some assholes that are gonna break my heart and leave me like that person did. But no matter what....I will be true to myself...I got a crazy family, but way more stable than some, and in their own way...I know they love me, and would die for me...hey they support me being gay and an actor. If that's not good parents, I don't know what it is. I got amazing friends that don't require an explanation to explain because how do you describe perfection? As for my professors...I couldn't ask for better idols. All of them are amazing individuals, and I say this with pride. I hope to surpass them in this career, only so in talkshows and everywhere I go, I will always bring up their names.

To sum this up. 2014 started bad, and when school started in May and on it just got better and better and better. And soon I get to go back! I never dread school I love and look forward to it. Like my high school it's like a second home. Lol sorry High school you've been demoted to 3rd home XD. (I actually have a 1, 2, 3, 4 rank and this isn't the order but y'all get the picture! XD) But now thankfully the worst is over. That person is gone and out of my life. I can finally say I have moved on and 2015, I look forward to whatever adventures and whatever emotional roller-coasters you may bring to me.

I love you all. Happy New Years! I hope you all had an awesome one! See you around!