Good evening everyone (who actually reads the stuff I spew out),welcome to my year in Review. It is a but late seeing how I'm used to the morning bird schedule but with a night Owl mindset. I just woke up with a bit of an ache and needed some pain meds. I sat waiting for the meds to take effect when I realized that I am finally in a good (and polite) state of mind to start my review of 2014.

Man, the Chinese was not kidding when they said that this year would not be a good year for me. Sadly, the lunar year is still going (leaving one more month for ObaMA to be assassinated, predicted by the Chinese). It has been an incredibly stressful year for me. I started out the year jobless. While I do admit that having a free schedule was nice, it does wear thin after awhile. So, I began my job search in February. I was turned down by my first choice and put on a bit of a run around trying to find out what happened. Talk about 2 weeks wasted! I was definitely discouraged after that. After that downer, I sat in the library and contemplated. I had heard from my old medical director that a vet I used to work with had opened up a new emergency clinic in town. I initially thought that it was a bad idea to work for him due to rumours of him running things with a bully tech. But, then, I noticed it was not just him opening up the clinic but also someone else
I used to work with, someone I enjoyed working with. So, I thought "Hey, it's worth an ask". I was called for an interview (with only 2 hours to get ready). The main boss met me, again. He had a vision intended for his new clinic that I was sceptical about. He wanted a family environment for the clinic. The staff will be like a second family and current family members treated as such. My thoughts were "hah! For an emergency clinic? As if" but the flexible schedule and familiar faces were attractive to me. So I pretty much got hired right away. Since then, I've met a lot of wonderful people. In fact, I was proven wrong, the family environment he wanted really did happen. I also got to do some pretty intense stuff.

Personal life though, took a nose dive soon after I got the job. I got stressed and buried myself deep into work. Things got so bad that I was less stressed at work than sitting in my car to go home.
I never actually took mental health very seriously before this year. In fact, I was that person that would say "pfft, whatever" and look at the person funny (probably in contempt). Now, I have more understanding. I see the Bell commercials currently playing and I appreciate the effort.
To describe what happened to my mind is difficult. I never went to a doctor because of the stigma attached to it. A certain event made my mind kind of fissure. The events through the day caused the fissure to get wider and both sides to twist a little. Sometimes, it felt as if cracks would form. I attempted to close the fissure by working more. All I succeeded in doing was build a bridge between the two pieces. Eventually, I think my mind had enough.
The stress got really bad at some point in the year. I thought I could handle it on my own. I really couldn't. I have a lot of friends to thank for helping me that week.
The stress is gone from my life. I am so glad for it. I am so grateful for my friends that helped with that. no more thorn to my side.
My lesson/advice: don't be me. Don't be the person that looks at mental health in contempt. 2 reasons, if you're the person making cracks such as "you need to toughen up" or "are you that wimpy you have to go to a therapist?" I sure as heck ain't coming to you if I'm suicidal. 2nd, it kinda sucks becoming someone you once looked in contempt. Yup, totally sucks.
Other than that mess, I haven't really done much with my personal life. Most of my friends come from my coworkers now. It looks like I have found a really good group. As for gaming, Warlords of Draenor has been pretty good. That is once you learn to handle the elitists that have returned. Ugh, some people just take the game too seriously. It's a game that you can play. So, PLAY it, and don't work it, you know? The thing is, if you die, you respawn. No need to have a mass freak out over every little mistake. I mean, if that's how to treat a fun hobby, then yikes, don't come to my work!

The rest of the year went well. I still had to work a ton but the weight was gone. It was noticeable right away, even to my boss. I bonded with my coworkers through nights out about once a month. I'm glad decisions were made. I'm glad  grael-dragon would still put up with me. It's been a very stressful year, and I do apologize to everyone for putting up with me, especially him.