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10 years ago
As you know I have a job now. I have depression, time to time it flares up.
Recently I've discovered my mother has it too. Worse than me. She tried to kill herself last night.
She tried to kill herself last night.
I can't...really comprehend it. She's a very rational person.
Always thinking about all the ripples of her actions.
But she just shoveled down three handfuls of pills and didn't leave any sort of note.
I thought I was being paranoid when I assumed suicide attempt.
I talked it over with the doctor, was so certain she was getting better.
She quit her job, because she was afraid she would kill herself over it.
Turns out that happened. She attempted to anyway. On her last two weeks.
She tried to kill herself. Over work she'd never have to see again.
I kept assuring her things were getting better.
She kept assuring me she knew, that she wasn't in that place anymore.
She must have lied. I don't know what to do. When she comes home, things will definitely be strained between us.
Because I honestly thought she trusted me, confided in me. But She just...didn't. She lied to me.
So I don't know what I can do, even if I want to. Because I've been there too. I've never just done it. I don't think I ever could.
As little as I care about myself, I care about you all a lot more. So I suppose I'll always be here with you all. No need to worry.
Just be close to her side and constantly show her that things will get better. Even something as simple as that can help someone overcome depression. I hope your mother can overcome this with her strength and the strength of those who lover her (Like you).
I don't think she's saying those things to lie to you; I think she might be saying them to try and convince herself that it's the truth, that things will get better. Regardless, it sounds like you should stay in touch with her. Don't try to force positivity on her, but at the very least let her know that she is loved and supported.
I'm sorry if this isn't all that helpful, or if it's stuff you already knew. As another person currently struggling with severe depression myself, I hope that things improve for the both of you.