I thought Everyone deserved a little update about what is going on right now, why I haven't been posting or saying very much lately. I really wouldn't post anything like this on here.. but, I need to say something before people worry where I went too...

First of all, I wanted to say HAPPY NEW YEARS! Welcome all new watchers as well. I hope your new year is going off strong so far happy and well.

I have been struggling a little bit with finance problems right now.. Also, when I said I was going to be moving out in July.. my mom dropped the bomb shell and said she wanted to be gone in May, which is starting to be harder for me to find a place to live. Alone, get a car and everything I need for that. Looks like I am going to be on my own with just my cat.. My sister is moving in with her boyfriend and possible two other room mates.. my mom is going to New York. My brother is staying with are grandparents (which there is no room for me) and I can't stay where I am currently at. I tried looking for room mates through the people I know.. and a lot of them told me pretty much "hehe.. good luck on your own!"My mate can't move in with me because she doesn't have a Job and can't support her half of the rent. Also, something is going down with her mom..so she might have to be there longer with her..
I can't move in with her, because I have my cat and I don't ant her to get hurt by the two cats my mate has, or vise versa.
A friend offered me to move in with her, but there is issues with my cat again. When I am not home, my cat has to be locked up in the bed room all day... which isn't fair for my loving kitty who is used to running around the house freely. Also, I am at work all the time and lucky to at least have a day off..
Her brother also comes home for shore leave and the room I will be staying in is his.. I have a feeling I will be shoved out o the living room to sleep on the couch while he stays home... I can't do that either..

I have been so depressed that it has caused a lot of issues at work, with my relationship and friend ships that I've been pretty much pushing people away.. on top of that, my most needed time.. I just feel left abandoned. Every night I just go to sleep crying.. because my anxiety of being left alone is driving me crazy, and living alone can be expensive. I don't make little to anything and get paid weekly.. It's hard to even try saving now. When I get my check, it gets blown on the phone bill, cat needs, house needs, car insurance, gas , everyone's needs and I am last.. I am lucky to have at least $20.00 by the end of the day.. I really don't get paid that much.

I was looking into getting a second job, in order to pay for everything.. But, I know that will piss a lot of people off knowing my freedom of what ever I have left will be gone.. I won't know if I will be able to afford cable or internet for awhile.. so, when the time gets closer. Idk If I will have time to get on here without going to a local mcy d's or some place with wifi for a short time. I want to try right now to avoid asking for donations.. I feel it isn't right because I really wouldn't have anything to offer in return. I will keep posted in the mean time of what is going on..

Thank you all for understanding.. and again.. I really never post anything like this, but you the people of the fandom and my fans/friends/family needed to know my situation if I ended up suddenly disappearing and why I have been so limited on being on here. Thank you all..