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11 years ago
I cried. I threw things. I called mom and sobbed. I calmed down. I got sleep. I got peace. I listen to my paranoia scream "I told you so" over and over again... but then total silence.
I talked to friends. I played games, roleplayed, kept busy from thinking about it. I got voice of reason and experience to pull me through. I had friends pine over me to make sure I'm not alone at that crucial moment of my life. Be it on Skype or on Steam.
And finally, I got clarity. I'm over it. Sure, I'm still hurt over it and want so much hugs I don't know what to do with them... But, I know that I have lots of friends to help me through this and understand things a little more. But I'll be fine again. I'm going to be focusing on loving myself before letting someone back in my broken, bruised heart.
And it turns out... my happiness? My true happiness is to be around my loved ones. My family and friends. Have fun, get wonderful laughs and just have a great time. Travel, draw. Work. My happiness didn't lie with being a wife to someone or love that much. I wasn't ready. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hurt. That sort of pain will take time to heal. So don't think that I'm one of those types that it's easy to get over it. I'm still not over it. But, I'm trying at least. I'm struggling and pushing to move on. Because being sad and treating myself like shit will get me nowhere.
Those who said I'm strong... Thank you. It turns out I am. And it'll only make me stronger. So thank you. All of you. For understanding and giving me time to bring myself up when I was broken.
I'll be okay. I'll be happy again. I just need to do it for myself and not for anyone else.
I'll be getting back to work starting Monday! So be prepared!
I talked to friends. I played games, roleplayed, kept busy from thinking about it. I got voice of reason and experience to pull me through. I had friends pine over me to make sure I'm not alone at that crucial moment of my life. Be it on Skype or on Steam.
And finally, I got clarity. I'm over it. Sure, I'm still hurt over it and want so much hugs I don't know what to do with them... But, I know that I have lots of friends to help me through this and understand things a little more. But I'll be fine again. I'm going to be focusing on loving myself before letting someone back in my broken, bruised heart.
And it turns out... my happiness? My true happiness is to be around my loved ones. My family and friends. Have fun, get wonderful laughs and just have a great time. Travel, draw. Work. My happiness didn't lie with being a wife to someone or love that much. I wasn't ready. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hurt. That sort of pain will take time to heal. So don't think that I'm one of those types that it's easy to get over it. I'm still not over it. But, I'm trying at least. I'm struggling and pushing to move on. Because being sad and treating myself like shit will get me nowhere.
Those who said I'm strong... Thank you. It turns out I am. And it'll only make me stronger. So thank you. All of you. For understanding and giving me time to bring myself up when I was broken.
I'll be okay. I'll be happy again. I just need to do it for myself and not for anyone else.
I'll be getting back to work starting Monday! So be prepared!
Sadly what will I do with all these extra fucktons I ordered D:
I've got my own room on RPH now if you'd like to stop by, several people there may be interested in buying some art too.
But you're a shark either way, remember!?
You'll do so much better! <3
Kudos for keeping your head up and strong. I admire that.
I don't care if he'll realize that he made a mistake. I no longer care for him in that way anymore.
I'll try to keep my head up high.
What are your preferred pronouns again, if any? It's been awhile since I came out of my own shell to talk to people, and beforehand I didn't have anyone that I knew of that identified as other than their birth gender. So, I'm a leetle new at this. :/
If you want to prefer me as a "he" then be my guest!
Regardless, you're a good person. So thank you. :3
Instead of wallering in the hurt, I try to at least lend some comfort to others who might be hurting in a similar fashion, because I was alone when it happened to me.
And it was awful.
Thank you for the offer, though! :D
I just want to be around my family and friends. That's all I truly want.
I'll poke you about your schedule later though!