in the dumps, sad and stressed out over liars, false people, and depression..

been being lied to for a LONG time by the person i thought was there for me, but really never is unless things need to be fixed or repaired or when there is nothing else going on..

Havent been really around people lately just mainly bottled up, but its not like people really talk to me much anymore anyways, its like im just forgotten..
Havent been really suiting, no one really do go out with and do things with, so my suits sit, just hanging around or stored away in a tote in a cold garage..

struggling to cope with the fact im depressed and i feel like theres nothing i can do, i feel helpless and alone and i hate this damn feeling. its like the person i want around most never is, but im always there when needed..
I feel cursed, and lied to alot by people that claim to care for me or about me, when im falling, no one is ever there to help me back up-thats what depression is like a constant fight with myself that keeps getting worse since the person that claims to want to be around never is when i need them the most..but for others gladly goes and doesnt give me a second look..it feels like im drowning while people walk away..


Trying to get a kigu done for myself through all this hoping it may cheer me up along with finishing some pieced of salish fox..