Oracle, you're a lovely man. Always a doll to see whenever I get to a meet up north. There are a handful of people at the Leeds meet I hope I see every time I go, and you're one of them. I know we don't get to talk too much, but you're a joy to be around.

Also, let it be known that I am a Christian (devout) but I don't force myself down peoples throats. My only reason for bringing it up attached to this message is you're not "an ungodly pervert who should die for your sins." You're perfect being you. If someone else decides to judge you and then they call themselves religious under any religion, then they've got their views all wrong and need to look in the mirror to fix themselves before they hate on others. In the few years I've known you now, Ive never had a single negative thing to say or thought about you.

That said, all of the hearts for you, hun. <3 <3 <3

Thank you I feel very lost and my suicdal thoughs are playing again i feel very much alone and uncared so i take my anger out by thinking everyone one hates me.
I have alls felt lost spirtuality

You are not any kind of awful thing. You are a sweet guy with a lot of latent talents as an artist or photographer. I hope therapy will help you feel better about yourself soon so you can share the light that's hidden inside you and enjoy the society of others. No one wishes anything bad for you, I'm sure.

I am so jealous and hateful of others

I don't hate you. I consider you a good friend and I hope you know that. We've known eachother for years and had many great times. I've been through all of this myself for the last year too and it really is bad, I know. I don't humour you, I am genuinely concerned about you when you are like this but there is not much I can do ither than offer support. I am not a trained professional, but what I can do is be there and be supportive which I try to do. Lately as you know I haven't been at meets for a few months due to mental health issues too and I am sorry I have not seen you for that long. Hopefully we can see eachother soon and if your therapy isn't going how you need it to be then please make sure you tell the doctor/psychiatrist as I have had issues myself with them messing me around. I hope you can see that people, me and our mutual friends do genuinely care about you, no matter how low you feel at this time. I found comfort in these thoughts myself at bad times. All I can say is that I wish you the best in therapy and to remember people care. I hope to see you soon enough.

Orical
There is a person that I know (Which is actually me but I am trying to stay in charectore)
At had trouble with physiology.
Physiology themselves!
But hopefully you will get through.
I got to say this sounds a offal lot like what Crystal Fire would type

Oracle

You are a good guy, a good friend, and I like seeing and talking to you. You are not this horrible, disgusting person you seem to think you are. You are a fun, loving person that people want around.

Also you should know me well enough by now, I won't stab you in the back, I'd rather stab you in the front, in broad daylight :-P