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10 years ago
Hey guys, sorry about the long go without much chatter here (haven't made a journal since MFF aka Gas-Con) So I figured I'd give you guys a bit of an update
As I mentioned before, Depression was pretty rough this season. I'm only now starting to recover, but December was pretty much a complete wash. I barely got anything done, and after christmas, I literally wanted to lay down in the middle of the road and wait for a very large truck after a family-related incident left me completely devoid of any self-confidence I had (No details beyond a complete and total failure of my own courage, it's a long story). Thankfully one of my friends decided he wanted to help me out a bit financially, and has allowed me a chance to get caught up, as I havent had to take on nearly as much work as I would normally have to to keep a roof over my head.
In the last week I seem to have caught my stride again. I got an average of 3 Thigh-Ups coloured per day, and I hope to keep that pace going. It's gonna take a while to get through the backlog, but hey, that's my own fault for letting it get so bad. The reason I haven't been posting my work is honestly out of fear. You see, whenever I post, I inevitably get notes form people asking if their piece is done yet, and I gotta tell them it isn't, cuz I normally finish, dropbox it, and shoot it to the commissioner for approval. Getting peeps asking if their piece is done kinda makes me feel guilty for having a backlog, which makes me not really wanna work, y'know?
I don't tend to work in the order I take on my commissions, cuz there's always those ones that don't excite me immediately, and I need that excitement to put out my best-looking work. I used to do my pieces in order, and it always jarred me up when I got to the pieces I didnt want to work on but forced myself to, and they never looked all that great. So my current method is looking at the stuff I've got left to colour, and picking from the pool the ones that I feel the most desire to work on, and a lot of the time, something I didn't want to work on one day is TOTALLY what I want to work on another day, so the method lets me put out my best work, cuz I'm comfortable and enthusiastic. And the better my stuff looks, the happier my commissioners are, I get more interested potential customers, and everybody's happy. It works for me.
So, in short, there's the lowdown. I'm comin off a bad depression, I'm hittin my stride again and hoping I can keep it going to clear up this backlog. I'll start posting more once I've taken a considerable chunk out of the backlog and don't feel so shitty about how many people I've kept waiting. I make no promises about when things will be done. I'm just gonna do them and get them over and done with. I'll still have to take on some commissions here and there to pay some bills, but for the most part, I'm working on backlog.
COMMISSIONS (the fullsize huge scenes, not the ones I'm doing nowadays)
1/ Rogern (inked, restarting colour)
2/ 9Lion (pencilled, plus one other)
3/ Mechaman
4/ Chazore (pencilled)
5/ yutrah (inked)
6/ rageki (inked)
7/ Twitch The Dragon (inked)
8/ Kipeo
9/ Opeoaslam
As I mentioned before, Depression was pretty rough this season. I'm only now starting to recover, but December was pretty much a complete wash. I barely got anything done, and after christmas, I literally wanted to lay down in the middle of the road and wait for a very large truck after a family-related incident left me completely devoid of any self-confidence I had (No details beyond a complete and total failure of my own courage, it's a long story). Thankfully one of my friends decided he wanted to help me out a bit financially, and has allowed me a chance to get caught up, as I havent had to take on nearly as much work as I would normally have to to keep a roof over my head.
In the last week I seem to have caught my stride again. I got an average of 3 Thigh-Ups coloured per day, and I hope to keep that pace going. It's gonna take a while to get through the backlog, but hey, that's my own fault for letting it get so bad. The reason I haven't been posting my work is honestly out of fear. You see, whenever I post, I inevitably get notes form people asking if their piece is done yet, and I gotta tell them it isn't, cuz I normally finish, dropbox it, and shoot it to the commissioner for approval. Getting peeps asking if their piece is done kinda makes me feel guilty for having a backlog, which makes me not really wanna work, y'know?
I don't tend to work in the order I take on my commissions, cuz there's always those ones that don't excite me immediately, and I need that excitement to put out my best-looking work. I used to do my pieces in order, and it always jarred me up when I got to the pieces I didnt want to work on but forced myself to, and they never looked all that great. So my current method is looking at the stuff I've got left to colour, and picking from the pool the ones that I feel the most desire to work on, and a lot of the time, something I didn't want to work on one day is TOTALLY what I want to work on another day, so the method lets me put out my best work, cuz I'm comfortable and enthusiastic. And the better my stuff looks, the happier my commissioners are, I get more interested potential customers, and everybody's happy. It works for me.
So, in short, there's the lowdown. I'm comin off a bad depression, I'm hittin my stride again and hoping I can keep it going to clear up this backlog. I'll start posting more once I've taken a considerable chunk out of the backlog and don't feel so shitty about how many people I've kept waiting. I make no promises about when things will be done. I'm just gonna do them and get them over and done with. I'll still have to take on some commissions here and there to pay some bills, but for the most part, I'm working on backlog.
COMMISSIONS (the fullsize huge scenes, not the ones I'm doing nowadays)
1/ Rogern (inked, restarting colour)
2/ 9Lion (pencilled, plus one other)
3/ Mechaman
4/ Chazore (pencilled)
5/ yutrah (inked)
6/ rageki (inked)
7/ Twitch The Dragon (inked)
8/ Kipeo
9/ Opeoaslam
Take care man, hopefully talk soon!
Some people will always be impatient and demand stuff. Sometimes it's justified, often though they don't realise real life gets in the way. The best you can do is respond professionally and get to completing stuff at your pace, not theirs. It'll make you more comfortable and the pics will turn out better.
And I really hope my pic wasn't one of those that you disliked doing, cuz I'd've changed it if that was the case.
I can't wait to see more of your stuff. Keep on keeping on!
Looking forward to seeing more great art.. at your pace and time..
Have an awesome day!
Woof!
But as long as you're improving mentally and with workflow's all good to hear. hope you keep doing well.
Remember take care of yourself first, worry about others after.
Best of luck to ua
And as others have said, take care of yourself. Life happens and it's important to take care of one's self when it does. We're patient and understanding as well as supportive, as your friend demonstrated and commenters have likewise said and shown here.
But I wish you the best Strype. I hope 2015 will be a better start for you.
Now you go take care of yourself, and i hope to see you at FE !
I wish I could say the same thing, given the total lack of economy and paid work here in the SW of England.
Glad you're feeling a bit better, though. Depression is horrible, end of.
Sorry to hear about the holiday and the bad that happened, but I am glad that you're getting better; I completely understand about the backlog, sometimes I feel that way with stories I write, and it's hard to get motivated, then something in my brain clicks, I get excited, and it's back to work.
I support, understand, and applaud your determination to work through the depression, and I hope that when the backlog clears up, that I might be able to have the priviledge of signing up for something special from you :)
So what sort of excitement are you looking for in commissions? :) I might have a good one for the next time you call for commissions... :3 I've been looking for the right time, money and your openness to hire your awesome hands and mind :) In a not-quite-so-demented or sexual way.... >.>
Wish you ll be ok, take it easy. You are an Artist. You are not defined by the art you do, it is art because you do it
Peace and tranquility!