FA+
Shop
Taking a break...
19 years ago
For how long? Heh, who really cares? *shrugs* Eh, I guess it's just me. Then again, I would'nt know for sure. But anyway, this is just a head's up. Prepare for a rant if you're actually interested in my opinions. First off, this first part has nothing to do with FA. It is rather long, so you were warned...
Anymore online whenever I manage to get on after long hours at work every night. I look for being able to chat with people, or even rp with. I've noticed that this entire time, that I have just been wasteing my time every night.
For the few of you that know, I'm usaelly not one to make the first message toward anyone in order to start a conversation. Basicly because I'm just too shuy, suck at starting conversations, and also afraid I might be bothering or annoying someone without even knowing it.
Now I have encountered many times where whenever I do message someone and chat, they always appear to act so damn distant. Not showing one bit of interest. Now it is possible that they could just be too busy with something else, or just keep going AFK. But people I do have on my messenger's I see chatting away or rp'ing away in vore chats, while this happens to me on my end.
What really gets to me is whenever someone I do have on my messengers, does'nt say one damn word to me. Yet waves to me or says hello if I enter the same vore chat room they are in. >.> Afrerwhich whenever I do reply, they go silent, only to speak to someone else whenever that person shows up. Striking up a conversation with them instead.
So, there you have it. This is the first part of why I am taking a break. I am just too sensative and I guess look to taking friendship to heart. And anymore I really don't know who is my true friend's online. v.v I have so many names on my buddy list, and yet never hear from anyone. For all I know, I'm probably not even on their buddy list. *shrugs* It's possible.
It feels like to me that there is some rumor going around about me. And that perhaps people talk about me behind my back. Yet whenever I show myself, they go silent toward's me. I have been told already that some people think I'm selfish. Don't know where the hell that started. But if people tend to think that, then I can be just as heartless of a bastard as they can. I try to be nice to people and make friend's, and rp buddies. But anymore it's like you gotta break your back just to know someone's name.
I've always been a loner, feeling like an outcast. It's true, I don't get out much in rl. All I do is work, pay bills, and lucky to have the 3 friend's I've got in rl as it is. Whenever I am online, it's like taking a break from rl, and wanting to enter a fantasy world where we can feel wanted around. Hang out with other's who care and such. Perhaps live out our fantasies on here with friend's.
Anyway, this is how I've felt this whole time. Felt this way for a few years now. And before anyone says it, I don't want to hear the "you're just trying to make people feel sorry for you" bullshit. >.>
As for the 2nd part....
Anyway, I guess I've gotten a pretty good start in FA. I will say it's somewhat nice here. I've got quite a few watches, a few favorites, yet only a comment or two out of my whole gallery...And so far no friend making yet. v.v
The few people I've tried to make contact with about doing trade's, one has already exchanged idea's with me, while a couple other's I have'nt heard back from in a week or so now when we were just getting started to talk about it. You know who you are...
Anyway, the trade's I mentioned I would do...I'll try to get around to doing as soon as I can. Which leads me to another subject of why I'm taking a break. I'm in the middle of moving, and having to work long hours at work at the same time.
So perhaps keeping away from online for a while will ease up my constant depression until I've settled in fully. Any chance I get, I may get online just to check email, *Mostly get junk mail anyway. v.v* And I might stop in here every now and then. If I ever happen to get any messages from anyone, I'll respond as soon as I can.
Other then that, somthing's gotta give. I need to break the habbit of staying up all night long, waiting and hoping when I really need my sleep for work. I work 2nd shifts. 10 hours a night now, actually...
Anyway, that is all from the lone kitty...
Chow.
Anymore online whenever I manage to get on after long hours at work every night. I look for being able to chat with people, or even rp with. I've noticed that this entire time, that I have just been wasteing my time every night.
For the few of you that know, I'm usaelly not one to make the first message toward anyone in order to start a conversation. Basicly because I'm just too shuy, suck at starting conversations, and also afraid I might be bothering or annoying someone without even knowing it.
Now I have encountered many times where whenever I do message someone and chat, they always appear to act so damn distant. Not showing one bit of interest. Now it is possible that they could just be too busy with something else, or just keep going AFK. But people I do have on my messenger's I see chatting away or rp'ing away in vore chats, while this happens to me on my end.
What really gets to me is whenever someone I do have on my messengers, does'nt say one damn word to me. Yet waves to me or says hello if I enter the same vore chat room they are in. >.> Afrerwhich whenever I do reply, they go silent, only to speak to someone else whenever that person shows up. Striking up a conversation with them instead.
So, there you have it. This is the first part of why I am taking a break. I am just too sensative and I guess look to taking friendship to heart. And anymore I really don't know who is my true friend's online. v.v I have so many names on my buddy list, and yet never hear from anyone. For all I know, I'm probably not even on their buddy list. *shrugs* It's possible.
It feels like to me that there is some rumor going around about me. And that perhaps people talk about me behind my back. Yet whenever I show myself, they go silent toward's me. I have been told already that some people think I'm selfish. Don't know where the hell that started. But if people tend to think that, then I can be just as heartless of a bastard as they can. I try to be nice to people and make friend's, and rp buddies. But anymore it's like you gotta break your back just to know someone's name.
I've always been a loner, feeling like an outcast. It's true, I don't get out much in rl. All I do is work, pay bills, and lucky to have the 3 friend's I've got in rl as it is. Whenever I am online, it's like taking a break from rl, and wanting to enter a fantasy world where we can feel wanted around. Hang out with other's who care and such. Perhaps live out our fantasies on here with friend's.
Anyway, this is how I've felt this whole time. Felt this way for a few years now. And before anyone says it, I don't want to hear the "you're just trying to make people feel sorry for you" bullshit. >.>
As for the 2nd part....
Anyway, I guess I've gotten a pretty good start in FA. I will say it's somewhat nice here. I've got quite a few watches, a few favorites, yet only a comment or two out of my whole gallery...And so far no friend making yet. v.v
The few people I've tried to make contact with about doing trade's, one has already exchanged idea's with me, while a couple other's I have'nt heard back from in a week or so now when we were just getting started to talk about it. You know who you are...
Anyway, the trade's I mentioned I would do...I'll try to get around to doing as soon as I can. Which leads me to another subject of why I'm taking a break. I'm in the middle of moving, and having to work long hours at work at the same time.
So perhaps keeping away from online for a while will ease up my constant depression until I've settled in fully. Any chance I get, I may get online just to check email, *Mostly get junk mail anyway. v.v* And I might stop in here every now and then. If I ever happen to get any messages from anyone, I'll respond as soon as I can.
Other then that, somthing's gotta give. I need to break the habbit of staying up all night long, waiting and hoping when I really need my sleep for work. I work 2nd shifts. 10 hours a night now, actually...
Anyway, that is all from the lone kitty...
Chow.
At any rate, it sounds like it's weighing you down, I think some time away will help you. There are some really great RPGs coming out of your a console gamer, and some nice books too (Song of Ice and Fire series by George R Martin is fantastic). Take the time off and remember how much fun it is to just be, then come back if your feeling the urge to share your work. At any rate, I'll likely be here, whether that's a good or bad thing is ultimately up to you ^,^
Sorry if I appear that way toward you. You just kept catching me whenever I've been down the most. I have kept responding to you though...
I'm just back from a protracted eHiatus myself... more or less... there's really nothing around for me either, but I figured that out years ago. Vore chats have sucked for entirely too long now; last time someone begged and pleaded me back into one, I left with yet another shining example of why I don't bother showing up there anymore.
-I get stuck playing roles I don't like, pandering to thankless fan-tards, or
-I get shunned
Ya... friggin butt load of fun there... >'`-'`<
Salt in the daily politics, the cliques, the lack of consideration for other players, the general contempt for the English language, bad writing, lousy play, pointless plots.... has it changed much? ...for the good, I mean.
Chat bashing aside, ya.... wasting time waiting for somethign to happen sucks. I can pop on AIM and get between a half dozen and two dozen IM's within seconds of logon... nothing productive... just 'bots and stuff "Hi! What's up?! I'm bored; can you entertain me?"
I'm MUCH more productive now that I'm avoiding that. ^-^
Try FA on dialup... it's not just slow, it's painful. Still... is free and it's not bogged down with a full Mb of ads for every bloody page, AND they're trying to improve it, which rocks much. iDonate! ^-^
Anyhow, if you want to attract attention, sadly, you have to pander to other peoples' interests... have something to to offer them, be it art, play or whatnot. Problem is, if you do that, then the boring ones won't leave you alone. ....so which edge of that sword do you wanna fall on?
All these dilemas... I wanna sleep now. >-.-<