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I miss him
11 years ago
My boyfriend of several months has been grounded for over 2 months now. It's been hurting me being without him. I spent Christmas, New Year's, and will most likely spend Valentines day without him. I feel like it's all my fault that he's grounded, though his parents are mad at him for something else, I just feel like I was too much of a pussy to ask him for his phone number or address and shit. He's the only boyfriend I ever have had that will stay with me. For a while I haven't heard from him since November, until a few weeks ago I got to talk to him very briefly on a Minecraft server. You see, I left him every day a message on his skype for him to read when he gets back, but found out his parents checked his skype every day (he told me that on that Minecraft server), and I feel like an ass because I posted 2 video messages for him... I feel like a part of me is gone, and I don't know when I will ever see him again. I feel like an ass for not reaching out to him more to be part of his life more... and I think I may have accidentally outed him too... If anyone has any advice that would be nice.
As far as "He's the only boyfriend I ever have had that will stay with me" goes...you're really young. You're immature. You're going to make mistakes-that's how we learn. Things aren't always going to work out...that doesn't mean things will always be that way or that you won't ever meet someone who sill stick around BUT you gotta love yourself first and foremost. The better able you are to love yourself the better able you'll be to love someone else. Just don't give up on yourself or be harsh towards yourself. You're worth being loved so start with you.