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11 years ago
First off, I want to acknowledge that this journal will be read by maybe a dozen people, all of whom are very dear to me (because you're reading) and will protest "We love you! We need you!" I'm very grateful, but still...
I'm not gonna lie. I've felt pretty "meh" about the Fandom lately. It's starting to feel like it's overrun with ageist kids and popufurs. I think part of this is my limited scope of exposure - I only see the people I know to watch, and the people who attend the limited number of cons I'm able to attend. Granted, I've made some wonderful incredible friends at these cons, and I hope we'll continue to see each other outside of those cons, because I want to start attending new cons, rather than just re-attending the few I already attend. Nothing against those cons - they're ALL great fun - but I need to expand my horizons. When I do this, I'll be able to better assess the other part of my funk, which is "What is my place in the fandom?" It's not enough to just be an observer. I'm not that guy. I need to be involved and feel necessary, and I don't get a lot of that in the fandom. I attended my first con because Rhubarb was going, so instead of flying home for the weekend to visit him, I registered for the con so I could visit him. I don't know that I've ever quite gotten past "oh, Cosmik? He's with Rhubarb." All the things that make me special outside the fandom seem to make me superfluous within it. I don't want to compete for a place, I just want to sit at the same table.
Yes, this is a bit vague, and no, it's not secretly directed at any one person or thing. It's just a general feeling of furry ennui, and there's not much can be done about it. We'll see what happens this year, and proceed accordingly. I just haven't posted a real journal in forever, and thought I should catch up.
::wan smile::
C
I'm not gonna lie. I've felt pretty "meh" about the Fandom lately. It's starting to feel like it's overrun with ageist kids and popufurs. I think part of this is my limited scope of exposure - I only see the people I know to watch, and the people who attend the limited number of cons I'm able to attend. Granted, I've made some wonderful incredible friends at these cons, and I hope we'll continue to see each other outside of those cons, because I want to start attending new cons, rather than just re-attending the few I already attend. Nothing against those cons - they're ALL great fun - but I need to expand my horizons. When I do this, I'll be able to better assess the other part of my funk, which is "What is my place in the fandom?" It's not enough to just be an observer. I'm not that guy. I need to be involved and feel necessary, and I don't get a lot of that in the fandom. I attended my first con because Rhubarb was going, so instead of flying home for the weekend to visit him, I registered for the con so I could visit him. I don't know that I've ever quite gotten past "oh, Cosmik? He's with Rhubarb." All the things that make me special outside the fandom seem to make me superfluous within it. I don't want to compete for a place, I just want to sit at the same table.
Yes, this is a bit vague, and no, it's not secretly directed at any one person or thing. It's just a general feeling of furry ennui, and there's not much can be done about it. We'll see what happens this year, and proceed accordingly. I just haven't posted a real journal in forever, and thought I should catch up.
::wan smile::
C
I know I don't really help with the whole kids things either, especially since I'm under 21. :x But still, I hope you find what your looking for, even though that's not really something I can help with. :)
Look forward to jamming with you again though, however brief our contact was last year. :)
(Plus you have rhubarb and cosmik con at home. And any not rhu and cos con is a chris and ned day. Sounds better than any con to me!)
Ignore the bad and devote your efforts to the parts that make you happy. Fandoms and conventions are like buffets; no need to keep going back to taste the selections you've already decided you don't care for!
Regarding age, the crowd is definitely on the younger side, but there are more and more of us in our 30s (and 40s and up, for some!) because those young folks who don't leave have to get older along with the rest of us. :)
In case you didn't know, you are that cute red head.
During the course of the year, I would learn that you were also a DJ and stuff and that you had a relationship with that strange, busking bear that frequents cons. Who knew?
Anywho! It's normal to feel a bit -um... word- when you put a lot into something and don't really see a lot in return. If you need to take some time off to explore the issue, do it. No one can take care of you but you. But just like in Labyrinth: if you should ever need us, we'll be here (but not in a creepy way, like the Fireys - those gave me nightmares).
Also: Soup is both a food and a beverage.
I actually don't feel 100% comfortable being around my own age group. If you look at my page, you'll see that my Fursona is actually 40-something years old rather than my own age (20). the reaosn I did this was because I simply find it easier to befriend older people thanpeople of my own age, and I always have! I'm actually in contact more with my old teachers more often than I am with my old classmates! And I was just chatting to another greymuzzle the other day (
Even if you feel like most of the younger Furs don't appreciate you greymuzzles, you can at least be rest assured that this one does.
I've been feeling the same way, and in all truth, the only thing that matters is your happiness
Do what makes you happy in this fandom, and don't stress over it
Lol
I thought your journal was going in the direction of leaving FA and the fandom altogether. I was like, "NOOOOOOOOOOOoh, okay cool."