I haven't written a journal since before I left so I might as well. I've finally settled in and stuff at my dad's. Things are kind of shitty at the moment but that's my own fault for being an idiot. I've been kinda drinking myself to sleep the last couple of days but I'm doing better about that now. I'm really confused about a lot of things in my life, mostly my sexuality and what I want to do in life. I have some really great friends but I don't really feel like I deserve them, I'm a pretty shitty friend at times and I have a tendency to alienate people. I had all these hopes for when I moved here and I feel like I've ruined them all. I'm so tired of fucking up all the time.

On the positive side I've been looking at school, I'm still not entirely sure what I want to take but forensics seems like a pretty interesting option. I just need to try and think positive, but that's really hard for me when I'm feeling down. Sorry for the depressing journal but sometimes I just need to write things out to feel a bit better.