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since I'm trying to be more active here, and that means getting to know people around here, and folks knowing me! I hope some of you take the time to read, comment, whatever. And I hope to make more online pals (8
A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom?
uhhhhhhh im so bad with my phone. /actually goes to grab it/
I told my aunt that I hope her and her gf have a good valentines day.
B) What does the last text you recieved say? And from whom?
"I love you Paulina" from my aunt, haha.
C) What time do you wake up most mornings?
WHen my celiac, and therefore majorly bad chronic fatigue, is acting up... usually 12 hours straight depending whenever I went to sleep.
When my diet and body is healthy, I naturally wake up at 10 am. I miss being awake during the day ;;
D) Are you afraid of walking alone at night?
No, I love the darkness, it's so incredibly soothing.
E) What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day?
Honestly? I soak in a hot bath, it relieves my joints.
F) Where did your last kiss take place and with whom?
Oh goodness @__@ I havent dated in so long
Oh but I did have a makeout session at a halloween party lmao
G) Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school?
Not really, but I was once suspended for writing on the bathroom wall, which was ridiculous, considering everyone did it. ANd the principal went all the way to collecting some stories I was writing (since Ive always been a writer) just to analyze my freaking handwriting to pin me. Like? wtf?
H) Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so?
I used to work at a pet resort taking car of dogs and cats.
I liked the animals.
I didn't like having to stand outside for several hours.
And I can't stand catty gossipy girls.
SO I quit. Got to the point I was crying at work.
I like having more time alone...but it's scary not being able to feed yourself
so I now live off commissions
which
isn't going so well so far ;__;
I) Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos?
hahahaha I'm often called a prude, but in all honestly I'm not, well, deep down I'm not. I have pretty high poise I'm told. But I like to be sarcastic and make a lot of innuendos with close friends for jokes.
J) Have you ever been offered drugs but declined?
I've declined a few drugs yeah
K) Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking?
Not really
maybe momentarily
but I'm such a disassociated person that I forget people and things and habits within days unless I keep them up. >:
Like if I dont put make up on for three days I wont remember how I did it.
L) Have you ever been offered drugs and accepted?
Yup
M) Tell us something weird that turns you on.
uh.... LMAO.... uhh I don't know this first hand, but I think if a girl tied me up that'd be hot?
N) When did someone last admit romantic or sexual feelings for you? Was the feeling mutual?
No one seems to like me LMAO that I know of
people say I'm attractive, but if that's so, why aren't people interested in me?
SO I generally think people are lying when people counter with, "well, you should have loads interested in you, you're very attractive." If that's the case, where's the line?
O) What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately?
Being ready to be in a relationship and fearing it will never happen because of my sexuality.
P) When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation?
I do it daily lol
Q) Do you usually initiate hugs?
Rarely.
I'm not very touchy feely unless with explicit people.
ANd I dont like males touching me, unless it 100% platonic.
R) Are you a very affectionate person?
AHAHA
>:
I am and I'm not.
There's a reason my fursona's name is Paradox.
I'm affectionate sometimes? I can have the biggest metaphorical heart, and I can also have an icy exterior.
My "honest" affection is reserved for certain individuals, those that have earned that right, essentially.
For others, I'm just very mannerly.
S) Can you roll your own cigarettes?
I dont and will never smoke cigarettes.
T) What are you looking forward to?
Life getting better
lmfaoooooooo
U) Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more?
I have 2, bird feet on my left foot, and a unique infinity ymbol on my neck (I believe in reincarnation)
I have a few more in mind, yes
V) Are you mentally strong?
Yes and no.
You ask for advice and guiding.... I am your medicine woman. I can give you the thoughts you should think to clear your mind and heal it, advice on the roads you should contemplate traveling or seeing differently, and the words in which to describe how you feel to others. etc
But when it comes to myself I fail myself quite often.
I can guide just about anyone... but not myself.
It's probably my biggest fault...and I'm still not sure how to fix it.
W) Are you physically strong?
Kinda? I was a stocker/sales person at a pet supply store. So I mean, yeah? I lived on farms..etc. But I'm weak because of my health and i have a straight spine so I actually have no back support.
X) Do you think you’re a good person?
I think we are as beings, both good and bad. It's simply our choice on how to act.
Y) Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now.
I wish I was more confident and had more energy and drive to accomplish the things I not only want to, but need to. I feel I fail myself.
Z) What do you usually eat for breakfast?
Nothing ahaha
water
another for those that dont wanna tl;dr
FAV:
Place: mind
Person: my father thus far?
Color: ,mmm dark red/dark violet/navy
Food: UHHHHH cries idk cheesecake, lasagna, burritos, uh uh chili uh uhh uhh candy
Smell: crisp autumn night air
Book: too many
Movie: too many
Music artist: too many
Genre of music: indie/classical/indie pop
Genre of literature: fantasy/urban
Magazine: LMFAO no. jk uhh I like art mags
Texture: UHHHHHHHHHHHHHH idk >: brick? wood? IDK
Time of day: nighttt
Day of the week: friday
Tumblr: LMAO no
Thing to do when bored: eat LMAO om nom >: sleep
Celebrity: LMFAO no uhh jk idk Emma Stone
Class in school: I loved lit
Website other than Tumblr: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk
Drink: tea/wine
Precious stone: diamond yo jk I like a lot opal? idk
Animal: leopard/tiger/owl/stag
Flower: rose i know im original
Time in history: victorian era
Font: idfk
Video game: lmfao I used to like devil may cry and skyrim
TV show: LMFAO too many. lately...Penny Dreadful and The Flash
Play: idk lmao little shop of horrors is fun
Sound: rainnnn
Fruit: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh grapes?
Vegetable: strawberries (technically) and uhh uhhh uhhh beans lmao
Store/shop: LMAO I dont have no money foo but uhh idk
Article of clothing you own: librarian sweaters lmfao
Fashion/style: LMAO laid back librarian indie ish
Pattern: lmfao idk
Workout: HA I wish
Quote: "I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars." - Og Mandino & "Knowing what you stand for limits what you fall for" native american proverb
one of MANy fav quotes
Historical figure: LMFAO idk. Sacegewea... does she count
Boy’s name: uhhhhh idk Issac
Girl’s name: Grace
Potato chip flavor: salt and vinegar
Meal of the day: whenever I wanna eat
Ice cream flavor: REAL french vanilla and lemon sorbet /drools
Soda: which is bad for you )8< uhh so idk
Popcorn flavor: salt and vinegar should be made into a popcorn..maybe I'd like popcorn more
Season: early fall
Month of the year: idk october
Word: persnickety / prudent / petulant hey...they all start with p's ...lmfao
Disney princess: LMFAO idk Mulan?
Insult: none?
Joke: idk
Cussword: I try not to swear but I end up doing so...uhh....fu*k?
Letter: idk S looks cool
YouTube channel: Good Mythical Morning is my shit
Eye color: green mmm and I like brown too
Memory: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk finding a fawn while horseback riding is one
Dessert: cheesecake
Candy: ALL THE CANDY but mainly sour gummy stuff
Restaurant: idk Casa Ole
Lifehack: sleep
Language: all of them ;o; I like french, german, italian, japanese, russian, mandarin...you know, all the cliche ones
Thing to learn about: how to be me
Thing about yourself: my comedy relief to myself
A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom?
uhhhhhhh im so bad with my phone. /actually goes to grab it/
I told my aunt that I hope her and her gf have a good valentines day.
B) What does the last text you recieved say? And from whom?
"I love you Paulina" from my aunt, haha.
C) What time do you wake up most mornings?
WHen my celiac, and therefore majorly bad chronic fatigue, is acting up... usually 12 hours straight depending whenever I went to sleep.
When my diet and body is healthy, I naturally wake up at 10 am. I miss being awake during the day ;;
D) Are you afraid of walking alone at night?
No, I love the darkness, it's so incredibly soothing.
E) What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day?
Honestly? I soak in a hot bath, it relieves my joints.
F) Where did your last kiss take place and with whom?
Oh goodness @__@ I havent dated in so long
Oh but I did have a makeout session at a halloween party lmao
G) Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school?
Not really, but I was once suspended for writing on the bathroom wall, which was ridiculous, considering everyone did it. ANd the principal went all the way to collecting some stories I was writing (since Ive always been a writer) just to analyze my freaking handwriting to pin me. Like? wtf?
H) Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so?
I used to work at a pet resort taking car of dogs and cats.
I liked the animals.
I didn't like having to stand outside for several hours.
And I can't stand catty gossipy girls.
SO I quit. Got to the point I was crying at work.
I like having more time alone...but it's scary not being able to feed yourself
so I now live off commissions
which
isn't going so well so far ;__;
I) Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos?
hahahaha I'm often called a prude, but in all honestly I'm not, well, deep down I'm not. I have pretty high poise I'm told. But I like to be sarcastic and make a lot of innuendos with close friends for jokes.
J) Have you ever been offered drugs but declined?
I've declined a few drugs yeah
K) Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking?
Not really
maybe momentarily
but I'm such a disassociated person that I forget people and things and habits within days unless I keep them up. >:
Like if I dont put make up on for three days I wont remember how I did it.
L) Have you ever been offered drugs and accepted?
Yup
M) Tell us something weird that turns you on.
uh.... LMAO.... uhh I don't know this first hand, but I think if a girl tied me up that'd be hot?
N) When did someone last admit romantic or sexual feelings for you? Was the feeling mutual?
No one seems to like me LMAO that I know of
people say I'm attractive, but if that's so, why aren't people interested in me?
SO I generally think people are lying when people counter with, "well, you should have loads interested in you, you're very attractive." If that's the case, where's the line?
O) What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately?
Being ready to be in a relationship and fearing it will never happen because of my sexuality.
P) When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation?
I do it daily lol
Q) Do you usually initiate hugs?
Rarely.
I'm not very touchy feely unless with explicit people.
ANd I dont like males touching me, unless it 100% platonic.
R) Are you a very affectionate person?
AHAHA
>:
I am and I'm not.
There's a reason my fursona's name is Paradox.
I'm affectionate sometimes? I can have the biggest metaphorical heart, and I can also have an icy exterior.
My "honest" affection is reserved for certain individuals, those that have earned that right, essentially.
For others, I'm just very mannerly.
S) Can you roll your own cigarettes?
I dont and will never smoke cigarettes.
T) What are you looking forward to?
Life getting better
lmfaoooooooo
U) Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more?
I have 2, bird feet on my left foot, and a unique infinity ymbol on my neck (I believe in reincarnation)
I have a few more in mind, yes
V) Are you mentally strong?
Yes and no.
You ask for advice and guiding.... I am your medicine woman. I can give you the thoughts you should think to clear your mind and heal it, advice on the roads you should contemplate traveling or seeing differently, and the words in which to describe how you feel to others. etc
But when it comes to myself I fail myself quite often.
I can guide just about anyone... but not myself.
It's probably my biggest fault...and I'm still not sure how to fix it.
W) Are you physically strong?
Kinda? I was a stocker/sales person at a pet supply store. So I mean, yeah? I lived on farms..etc. But I'm weak because of my health and i have a straight spine so I actually have no back support.
X) Do you think you’re a good person?
I think we are as beings, both good and bad. It's simply our choice on how to act.
Y) Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now.
I wish I was more confident and had more energy and drive to accomplish the things I not only want to, but need to. I feel I fail myself.
Z) What do you usually eat for breakfast?
Nothing ahaha
water
another for those that dont wanna tl;dr
FAV:
Place: mind
Person: my father thus far?
Color: ,mmm dark red/dark violet/navy
Food: UHHHHH cries idk cheesecake, lasagna, burritos, uh uh chili uh uhh uhh candy
Smell: crisp autumn night air
Book: too many
Movie: too many
Music artist: too many
Genre of music: indie/classical/indie pop
Genre of literature: fantasy/urban
Magazine: LMFAO no. jk uhh I like art mags
Texture: UHHHHHHHHHHHHHH idk >: brick? wood? IDK
Time of day: nighttt
Day of the week: friday
Tumblr: LMAO no
Thing to do when bored: eat LMAO om nom >: sleep
Celebrity: LMFAO no uhh jk idk Emma Stone
Class in school: I loved lit
Website other than Tumblr: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk
Drink: tea/wine
Precious stone: diamond yo jk I like a lot opal? idk
Animal: leopard/tiger/owl/stag
Flower: rose i know im original
Time in history: victorian era
Font: idfk
Video game: lmfao I used to like devil may cry and skyrim
TV show: LMFAO too many. lately...Penny Dreadful and The Flash
Play: idk lmao little shop of horrors is fun
Sound: rainnnn
Fruit: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh grapes?
Vegetable: strawberries (technically) and uhh uhhh uhhh beans lmao
Store/shop: LMAO I dont have no money foo but uhh idk
Article of clothing you own: librarian sweaters lmfao
Fashion/style: LMAO laid back librarian indie ish
Pattern: lmfao idk
Workout: HA I wish
Quote: "I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars." - Og Mandino & "Knowing what you stand for limits what you fall for" native american proverb
one of MANy fav quotes
Historical figure: LMFAO idk. Sacegewea... does she count
Boy’s name: uhhhhh idk Issac
Girl’s name: Grace
Potato chip flavor: salt and vinegar
Meal of the day: whenever I wanna eat
Ice cream flavor: REAL french vanilla and lemon sorbet /drools
Soda: which is bad for you )8< uhh so idk
Popcorn flavor: salt and vinegar should be made into a popcorn..maybe I'd like popcorn more
Season: early fall
Month of the year: idk october
Word: persnickety / prudent / petulant hey...they all start with p's ...lmfao
Disney princess: LMFAO idk Mulan?
Insult: none?
Joke: idk
Cussword: I try not to swear but I end up doing so...uhh....fu*k?
Letter: idk S looks cool
YouTube channel: Good Mythical Morning is my shit
Eye color: green mmm and I like brown too
Memory: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk finding a fawn while horseback riding is one
Dessert: cheesecake
Candy: ALL THE CANDY but mainly sour gummy stuff
Restaurant: idk Casa Ole
Lifehack: sleep
Language: all of them ;o; I like french, german, italian, japanese, russian, mandarin...you know, all the cliche ones
Thing to learn about: how to be me
Thing about yourself: my comedy relief to myself
lmao
nah, I like it because I have generalized anxiety and I think it just blocks out most of the stimuli that over exhausts me...and I can just...relax, think, create
because otherwise my mind is blank to try to survive day to day in a way?
idk LOL
I confuse myself
I also hate it when it's dead silent. Like zip, nada, none. No sound at all. It makes me dizzy.
my friends used to say I attract the dead/spirits
hahaha
;__;
I sued to have chronic nightmares too, so I guess when you go through so much fear and grief you eventually become immune to it
although lately I've been getting freaked out, but that's because I've contemplated delving back into physich shit
which probably isn't a good idea
but
IM SUCH A CURIOUS CAT
it's a problem of mine
)88888
and I think a lot of people aren't comfortable with silence because they aren't really used to it or don't know what to do with it? It's how most people respond to silence. Sort of how if a room goes quite many people feel the necessity to say something to fill the silence. :P
It's a great mechanism to learn to just relax into the darkness because its a time to make it easier to meditate and just self heal.
xD
idk ;o; <3
Self talk often helps, especially when you are afraid, since you mentioned that previously. We ourselves, which is essentially our minds, are our best friend and who we are innately. I think you can learn to embrace it, and once you do, that dark void won't scare you anymore. I believe in you! <3 And awesome fact: You are scientifically MOST creative at night ;) SO the more you allow yourself to think, let your mind wander, and to create awesome ideas...the mroe creativity will come to you and you can release for the rest to experience! Through drawing, writing, or even expressing ideas. (:
I may do more "raffle" like things in the future, though, contemplating a "YCH" easter one or somethin, haha
It's the not seeing everything its so scary.. Its like what could be out there.. Something could kill me.. That would be my luck ;3;
But being with someone I trust can calm me ^w^
Also you seem like super duper amazing *^*
but I grew up alone so I guess being alone with myself in the dark didn't quite scare me.
I get fearful of my back though, if that makes sense? It's like the most vulnerable part of my body, so when in the dark, if i DO in fact get freaked out (it does happen, I assure you, haha!) that's the place I feel I must protect. xD I'm quite odd D:
ANd awww, oh gosh, tytytyty ;v; you seem too, feel free to ask anymore questions, I'm such an open book and love to chat with new faces! <3
ahh, tysm for reading and replying, it means a lot!
Ya I like look around a lot if I'm in the dark ;^;
Checking behind me all the time ;w;
Looking around ;w;
I'm a terrible adult I'm not supposed to be scared of the monsters but I am ;w;
Oh I also hate silence.. x^x
I have to have background noise on.. Something.. Or else my depression gets to me and all sorts of bad thoughts run through my head about how I'm ugly or useless or bad at everything so I always try to have stuff on..
Oh what kinda tattoos do you have planned or thought about!? ^w^
I love tattoos and can't wait to get my own! <3
Haven't had money yet ;w;
Like enough money for a nice one. Plus my ex, recently broken up, hated them and always made me double guess myself. But now I'm more confident, barely my confidence is very low, but I know I want them and if someone can't handle it they don't deserve to hang with me and be my friend! ^w^
If so, my skype is: CoyoteAndTheOwl
(Any anyone else may add me, so long as they aren't an asshat) LOL
Ya I do! I'll add you! ^w^
I think it's rascal221 on there also.. If not its shi.neko221 I'll make sure I tell you in message x3
Was worried I could find it somehow :P