Journal title is something my friend  talenshi told me recently.

As anyone with working ocular nerves could put together: my art and comic output is pretty slow right now (The last FS page was in September?? A work desk picture over a week ago? Holy hell that's slow!). That word though: slow; that's the big point right now, I was careful to use that specific a word. I could have used "terrible" or "unacceptable" and, truth be told, I HAVE been phrasing it that way in my head. I'm naturally a very driven person and I've used phrasing such as that to keep myself moving at a pretty good pace before. But right now some of my worst Lyme symptoms have flared back up seemingly out of nowhere, and it's made keeping up with even basic tasks -much less drawing and brushing up art everyday- extremely difficult. We tried new medication (worked for a week) and then I was in the ER again (a place I have seen enough of for this life). And that's where I'm at right now: I'm on a 4-6 week intensive outpatient therapy regimen and it's been an interesting ride already. I'm only partially through my first week.

Of especial interest was how much some of the medication I've been on might have been exacerbating some of my symptoms. One I was able to quit cold turkey as soon as I found out, it wasn't very difficult, but the other "toxic"(too popular a word these days?) medication I have to taper off of or it could flat out kill me or mess me up in other ways; too bad, I'd have liked to just get a move on! But there it is again: I'm slow, and it's weird. I'm not used to being slow. During my most productive years I took on insane amounts of work just to see if I could and was, essentially, training myself to be an output machine and now...well now something is in my system that's got me all out of synch and it's killing me trying to be who I used to be in a busted up body with a fucked up neurological system.

So what? Have I given up and said "I'm just going to be slow/quit"? Not at all. I don't give up on anything. Instead Ive compromised with myself and, just like my journal title says: my job right now isn't to make art at my old pace, it's to get better so that I CAN actually do my shit again and do it well! I LOVE doing commissions, some of my best work and personal revelations have come out of them! I may upload things on my better days (I have them sometimes still, they're great!) but I'm excusing myself from some of the pressure so that I can make a promise to everyone who likes me as a person and/or artist: when I've beaten this thing into the ground I'll be back full force, possibly like never before; Lyme has been in my system in for eight years, I want to find out what I'm like on the other side. So, for now, slow it is. Tough as it is to say.

As always if you're a commissioner and don't want to wait I understand completely and I'll refund you immediately, no harm done. Alternatively you can always message me and we can talk things out. I like to think I'm pretty reasonable and that we could always hash out some sort of deal.

So keep your radios tuned to channel B-62 and I'll do my best to get better so that I can deliver to you the best possible comics and illustrations I'm capable of. Thanks for your understanding, patience, and support. I'll be grateful forever.

-Bone