so my mum's been home for the past two days and I haven't come out to her yet, so I haven't been able to wear my binder. And if I can't get myself used to it, and able to wear it for more than two hours, then I won't be able to wear it to school next week and that just...

that makes me really upset..


I need to come out soon, but I have no clue how..

How did some of you guys come out? And how did it turn out...?

least there is some good news to this week

My binder came (of course) and I am officially allowed to use the unisex bathroom(s) at school! My teachers are all going to be trained to know what to do and not to do (concerning my "status"), and they'll be using my preferred name and (hopefully) pronouns.

(back to the bathroom thing)
I was told by my councilor not to ever use the males bathroom because he doesn't want me to get hurt or harassed, and I understand that. I do, but once I pass, like full on pass, I want to get used to using the males bathroom.

There is only 2 unisex bathrooms in the whole entire school. One is the "special" kids room, which I would fee really awkward using, because I'd be taking their bathroom away from them. And one near only one of my classes, which is really big and kind of like a fancy restaurant bathroom. It's really clean and nice, but the thing is; it's so far away from all of my other classes that I practically have to run to it between some of my classes if I don't want to be late to the next one.


On other, happy notes,

I also might be getting my hair cut real soon, and (maybe) next month I'll be able to get more masculine clothing.



God, I'm crying
I'm sorry.

today's been a really long day, full of too much thinking..



I'm really happy that so much is going well, and that those I'v told have accepted me, but I'm so scared of that one person who finds out and starts hating me. And then the numbers grow


*hug*

I just don't like being rejected before people even get to know the real me..

I'm sorry for ranting so much