I know it seems childish of me to be concerned over this, but out of HOW MANY watchers, it seems noone reads my journals?

Sometimes I need people to talk to, sometimes I need help... sometimes I feel like absolutely noone cares about anything unless I absolutely show them, or scream at them after having bottled it up...

I know some people read them and aren't able to answer right away, but I'm the type of person who isn't demanding, but would actually like some interaction sometimes...

At home, I deal with shit...
At work, I deal with shit...
Online, I deal with shit...

And it never ends... and yet, even if it's just to rage, a simple "It'll okay" or something would be nice every now and then, yanno?

I'm sorry if I seem childish about all this, but with ALL the shit I've gone through in the past 2 years and CONTINUE to go through, it seems like I'm digging myself deeper and deeper into the abyss that is depression, stress, and loneliness...

I know people are busy often, and I know people don't get chances to read stuff right away, etc... Please don't take this as a harping at all... I mean I understand y'all don't wanna read stuff like this, or deal with it for that matter, but sometimes I just need somebody... :S