If I seem rather out of it today.. today is my uncles birthday..
Everyone in my house hold falls with depression, but smiles with joy of all the memories he gave us.
He was taken away from us by cancer a few years ago.. his ashes rest in peace in new york. Under a huge tree on property my family up in NY owns.
I wish I could be up there to give him a beer, as my family does every year on his birthday.
I miss the good times we have, from him picking on me. To wrestling around with him and my siblings. "Take him down" we would shout but, he never fell.. he was so strong.. so strong till his last breath..

I had a dream years ago that I visited him in the hospital, the day before he died. Family from my past when I was younger smiled and laughed with him.
My uncle was standing and not attached to any more wires and not laying on the bed anymore. He ruffled up my hair and said. "Going to miss you kiddo, see you around. Love you and stay strong for your mom."
The next day I had went to school, my brother and grandfather picked us up early. Telling us my uncle had passed away that night..

He would be so proud of me.. I have an amazing gf, I graduated from high school, have a job for 3 years and going.. and finally moving out on my own..
I miss you so much Uncle Gerry.. wish you could see me now..