Okay I guess I have to write thins now don't I. Most of you probably already know what happened but for those of you who only know me on here I just wanted to explain why I went silent all of a sudden. In my last journal I talked about taking Mows to the vet & how everything seemed fine and she would get better. Well the next day her blood tests came back and it turned out her kidney had shut down. This happened a week ago today. I had a SUPER LONG journal written out about her life and all the adventures we had in the 13 years she was my kitty. I deleted that journal but it turned out that was all I needed to do to start feeling better. I needed to think about all the happiness she brought me and what a great companion she was. I'll admit I was devastated and could barely function for the first few days. I still find myself greeting her when I come home and sometime I swear I can still feel her sleeping on me. It's hard and I still miss her. I will always miss her. But I'm not sad anymore.

I don't want to go too much into what happened because I've already been through that and am finally at a point where I'm recovering from her loss. I just wanted to explain why I disappeared from FA and while I won't delete my last journal, I can't bring myself to reply to any of the comments. You guys have been wonderful and supportive and your kind words really helped me feel better, I am now back on my feet thanks to your help. I probably won't reply to any comments here just because I don't want to dwell on this anymore. I want to move on and keep being happy.