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10 years ago
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This journal has nothing to do with commission status or anything, so don't worry, just a personal journal I guess. Looking for advice. Sorry if this is scattered. 3am and typing on a small keyboard.
A lot is going on in my life academically and planning my future is becoming rather daunting considering I don't know where I'll be in the fall OR what I will be studying.
As of right now, I'm waiting to hear back from Woodbury which is a small college in the heart of the animation area in Burbank. If accepted, I would be there to major in animation. It's really cool too because I'm required to do an internship in order to graduate (I actually have an internship this summer all set up, but unsure if that counts!!).
I'd most likely be there for 3 years given that my core requirements for my current school have taken up the entirety of my first two years of college....aka I've only had time to do art 101 and a really bad 3D design class...and then I'm expected to crank out a major in two years??? Nah not happening.
That's all if I get accepted too, which I sure hope I will hhh....regardless, I want to leave my current school and just go somewhere else yet I find myself just spiraling down because I don't even know what I want to do in the future.
Yeah art is really great and I recognize that I'm good at it and I certainly want to improve but mANNNN O MAN does the low salary thing bother me. Coming from a background where $$$ = success, it's difficult to see if art is really my passion or if I should look elsewhere to gain praise from my family/discover I'm better at something else. My real dream is voice acting but wow is that even more competitive. Ideally I would love to combine animation skills with voice talent and try and make something out of it but oh well.
I'm really into tech stuff, such as UI design and general web layouts, so something with computers would be great too but I also don't want to lose touch with my art.
Socially I have a great friend group up here and a large supportive furry community as well, so leaving them behind would really suck. Contact would just be online and I'd have to start all over again, which is difficult. Plus it would make my relationship long distance and I don't think I can...hh that's another topic.
God just thinking about all these possibilities I have is scary and exciting...but I have to choose one. I could suck it up, stay here with my social group and take classes that are interesting but not really beneficial, get a degree in business/communications/something and then art grad it up. Or I could turn a new stone and start all over again socially, take classes I really enjoy but have my relationship be in possible jeopardy and constantly be in fear of stuff idk.
I over think a lot and as much as my parents are willing to help me, I don't want to regret any decision I make in regards to my future success. I already made the mistake of choosing my current college and regardless of meeting great people and making awesome friends, it's hindering my ability to be expressive and whatnot. Not giving me the right assets I need to feel secure.
I feel like a lot of the "worrying about money" and "regretful decisions" come from me doubting my confidence in a professional environment. I've never had a job besides freelance and I'm great with people in a business setting, such as FC table etc. Just scaryyryrycyy.....
TL;DR I want to draw for a job but I get unmotivated due to the worrying about my family's success push thing. I know I have other skills other than drawing, but I don't know if I should tap into those for possible financial benefits or if I should stick to my guns and go with what I know I'm good at and use that mindset to crush the competition.
Thank
And no "debt/loans" comments please :3
A lot is going on in my life academically and planning my future is becoming rather daunting considering I don't know where I'll be in the fall OR what I will be studying.
As of right now, I'm waiting to hear back from Woodbury which is a small college in the heart of the animation area in Burbank. If accepted, I would be there to major in animation. It's really cool too because I'm required to do an internship in order to graduate (I actually have an internship this summer all set up, but unsure if that counts!!).
I'd most likely be there for 3 years given that my core requirements for my current school have taken up the entirety of my first two years of college....aka I've only had time to do art 101 and a really bad 3D design class...and then I'm expected to crank out a major in two years??? Nah not happening.
That's all if I get accepted too, which I sure hope I will hhh....regardless, I want to leave my current school and just go somewhere else yet I find myself just spiraling down because I don't even know what I want to do in the future.
Yeah art is really great and I recognize that I'm good at it and I certainly want to improve but mANNNN O MAN does the low salary thing bother me. Coming from a background where $$$ = success, it's difficult to see if art is really my passion or if I should look elsewhere to gain praise from my family/discover I'm better at something else. My real dream is voice acting but wow is that even more competitive. Ideally I would love to combine animation skills with voice talent and try and make something out of it but oh well.
I'm really into tech stuff, such as UI design and general web layouts, so something with computers would be great too but I also don't want to lose touch with my art.
Socially I have a great friend group up here and a large supportive furry community as well, so leaving them behind would really suck. Contact would just be online and I'd have to start all over again, which is difficult. Plus it would make my relationship long distance and I don't think I can...hh that's another topic.
God just thinking about all these possibilities I have is scary and exciting...but I have to choose one. I could suck it up, stay here with my social group and take classes that are interesting but not really beneficial, get a degree in business/communications/something and then art grad it up. Or I could turn a new stone and start all over again socially, take classes I really enjoy but have my relationship be in possible jeopardy and constantly be in fear of stuff idk.
I over think a lot and as much as my parents are willing to help me, I don't want to regret any decision I make in regards to my future success. I already made the mistake of choosing my current college and regardless of meeting great people and making awesome friends, it's hindering my ability to be expressive and whatnot. Not giving me the right assets I need to feel secure.
I feel like a lot of the "worrying about money" and "regretful decisions" come from me doubting my confidence in a professional environment. I've never had a job besides freelance and I'm great with people in a business setting, such as FC table etc. Just scaryyryrycyy.....
TL;DR I want to draw for a job but I get unmotivated due to the worrying about my family's success push thing. I know I have other skills other than drawing, but I don't know if I should tap into those for possible financial benefits or if I should stick to my guns and go with what I know I'm good at and use that mindset to crush the competition.
Thank
And no "debt/loans" comments please :3
As for school...that's a much bigger fish to filet. It's easy to say, "Go with what you love!" but we know that doesn't help the success-driven-family problem. My best idea is do animation or voice, since those are a passion you talk a lot about, and once you've completed those you could teach yourself all sorts of awesome UI and webpage design stuff with all the resources out there. If you were SUPER pumped, like on some crazy cocaine, you could even look up those things while taking classes, haha.
tl;dr: long distance sucks, but it's bearable if you keep in contact. Do what you love, there's lots of resources out there to help with what you need regardless of occupation.
Hope that's helpful, even if just a little. Take care :D
From what I've heard, go for tech stuff first because that's where the $ is at and then learn animation on the side.
But man the "you'll always have the talent" comment I get from my units makes me feel like i should just put it aside and work on it later since the past 19 years of my life is a good start yay.
It's def nice to hear and want to dive in to do what i love to do but man it's so unrealistic sometimes :ccc
Lots of different project with different things to do. You can do UI or 2D animation (if i read that right, thats sorta a thing you want?).
There's tons of jobs and the payment and everything are getting better and better... the industry is stable, fast and often has very nice circumstances.
And that daunting feeling on looking at all the possibilities ahead and wondering what is the best path to go down.. what I figured out as a working method for moving forward;
-Do whatever feels like its the most fun/appropriate/best in the moment of deciding. :3
Should it not be fundamentally what you want/wish to switch, then move into doing that (and you'll know better for having tried out that other road first ^^; ) no experience is ever truly wasted, as it shapes broader opinions and can be exactly the learning you needed to getting exactly where you want!
And if you pursue what you are most interested in to begin with, chances are you will be more successful in that vein than something you don't. ^^-;
Personally, I know for sure I will be persueing Art collage no matter what, I am not living my life not going but weither that lands me a sweet art job or I continue freelance, doesn't matter to me. I've always said I can see myself getting really irritated with turning artwork into a chore and that having a side career would be beneficial.
So basically although I'll be going to post secondary for a degree in arts, I'm more interested in learning, expressing and doing totally new things to please my artistic soul, the doller signs after that aren't a huge concern. If art remains a hobby, so be it, it'll be extra money on the side.
As for my career, like you, $$ does matter to me, I grew up not so wealthy and I want to be finacially secure my entire life and be able to responsibiliy persue things, have a mortgage etcetc. I suggest you get a summer job, part time. I've only had 1 professional job and it scared me to put myself out there but you will learn so much from a working environment plus it's a steady salary. Once you do you'll knoe a little more and a little more on what your looking for.
However even after all this you have ton insider what's going to make you as a person happy and Ira a vital time in your life where taking that big leap in decisions can be huge. I understand the relationship thing too (I'm scared to move away, I just moved in!) but although your in a relationship with someone, you both are still your own people with your own dreams and plans and if your relationship is strong, distance will never sway it. I know it sucks major of course but :/ think about when your finished school, got everything lined up, move in together, it'll fucking rock.
Anyway I hope I helped a little. I wish you luck! Just remember to be honest with yourself.
The big difference for me is that I have not finished most of my GE, but I'm nearly halfway with my major requirements.
But I'm three and a half years in to school and I've got a least three more, and I'm dreading the idea of not being able to graduate before hell freezes over. Even with a lot of support, I still get anxious about the financial side of things. I like most of what my major is supposed to be, but school is a giant pain in the ass to say the least.
Hang in there. I'm hanging in there, too.