Okay, Reading a email from my love, and your loving coments, i finaly realized...I so forgot you cared!
I was in my own bubble of depression, and not letting anyone in to help!
IM SUCH A JERK! I HATE ME!!

I keep forgeting that you, the people, were there...and i was blind...I didnt even bother to see or think that you cared...im such a fucking jerk...
I worried you, cause i did in fact hurt myself badly... But Wounds heal...



Well, anyhoo,, in short, Im sorry that i said all that stuff, and ignnored you...

I just get depressed and lonely sometimes...and... God i take after my mother...

SO in future, i will try to stop this stupid emo self shit...Ill try to look on the bright side of life...i will listen and see you with open eyes and ears.

again...So sorry...If i worried any of you sick...I apologize.

you are all my friends...and i shouldnt treat you like that...


Im sorry.