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10 years ago
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How do I even use this? Seems like I'm not really getting better in any sense.
Depression is still going strong as ever and hasn't gotten better if not worse.
Anxiety is still high and stress puking is still a thing.
I just can't seem to catch a break, can I?
But that's just a selfish thought, wanting to be happy.
University is going well, I'm managing better than last year which is good.
I've taken up Kobudo, another sport to try and help keep my mind off of all this negativity.
Even so, I can't shake everything off, it's still clinging on hard and various factors aren't helping it get rid of it.
I still need to keep my head fairly blank, without a thought if I am to keep myself in a decent condition.
Even the slightest thought can set off a spiraling chain reaction into another bout of tears and pain.
I really want to get better, but I just cant seem to.
There's always some truth to these dark thoughts that come and go.
Maybe it's better if I... No.
tl;dr - Sorry for being off for so long and all that. Mental health issues have caused me to take some time off but my condition hasn't improved and may in fact be getting worse due to various factors.
Depression is still going strong as ever and hasn't gotten better if not worse.
Anxiety is still high and stress puking is still a thing.
I just can't seem to catch a break, can I?
But that's just a selfish thought, wanting to be happy.
University is going well, I'm managing better than last year which is good.
I've taken up Kobudo, another sport to try and help keep my mind off of all this negativity.
Even so, I can't shake everything off, it's still clinging on hard and various factors aren't helping it get rid of it.
I still need to keep my head fairly blank, without a thought if I am to keep myself in a decent condition.
Even the slightest thought can set off a spiraling chain reaction into another bout of tears and pain.
I really want to get better, but I just cant seem to.
There's always some truth to these dark thoughts that come and go.
Maybe it's better if I... No.
tl;dr - Sorry for being off for so long and all that. Mental health issues have caused me to take some time off but my condition hasn't improved and may in fact be getting worse due to various factors.
Are you getting treated for this? You said a while back you were diagnosed, but I'm curious how things have progressed since then. Make sure you're talking to the right doctors, please.
I'm trying my best but somehow, I manage to knock myself back down.
I'm not suicidal, I've been through that and it's not worth it. It'll cause more problems than it'll relieve.
Here's a list of things to consider doing to address your depression. I won't say this will cure your depression without fail, but it might help.
http://www.diycouturier.com/post/47.....her-when-youre
I... I just don't know what to do most of the time. It's just so confusing going through the same cycle again and again without any change. Even when I try to break out, it somehow manages to bring me back.
Again, thank you so much. This means so much to me.
Also, I'd recommend checking out some of