Sometimes....it hurts so much.....and I wanna give up so badly....and stop caring about everyone and everything.....i keep getting so close to that point......i cry....a lot.....probably to much.....not just is it mental pain.....but physical as well.....and that drives me to give up more.......the more time I spend in the hospital or at the doctor or getting treatments.....with little to no improvements.......i feel worse and worse about life.....and lol I wanted was a normal life.....to go to school...to have a job.....to go out with friends.....not be constantly taken care of by my parents.......i can't do anything.......I'm getting older.....and it feels like my life is going backwards.......I'm can't even plan for my future because I can only go day by day.......everything I ever wanted to do with my life........I'm most likely not attending Midwest Furfest this year......my medical bills are to huge and I don't have the money......i don't really have the money for anything anymore......I'm depressed all the time......I'm always stuck in the house........I really wanna give up........