Well...I got about a half hour of sleep last night because of this stupid spiraling depression. It really sucks when you have few to no people that can help you out during times like these. Waking up from nightmares is not fun...especially when you're on your own and nobody else is awake to help you out. Suicidal thoughts don't help the matter either...I just feel like shit and don't really want to be alone anymore...need someone to lean on every once in a while even if I'm a dom...