...I can find a way to send  greenendorf a proper, sober apology. I mean, I guess it's not that bad when someone thinks you're too much of a handful to be around. It can't always be helped - just like the occasional panic attacks (which I think really is 99% of my discomfort). Still, I feel it would be the right and honorable thing to do to apologize for my misbehavior. Just not sure how to go about doing it. Maybe there just isn't any way. But I hope there is.