Its going to be very lonely.

I will only see my bf once probably before he vanishes far away for military stuff.
I was told I need to do things for myself. Try to move up some more towards goals.
Truth it I have none.
My dreams and goals died after I left high school.
I have no willpower nor do I have any motivation.

Tis why my art is scarce and such.
I don't know what I am going to do.
I screwed up possible easy stuff for the next few months and going to have to look for a job and put up with humans.
I am uncomfortable with things.
And I won't know what to do with myself in the near future.