I hate these extended panic attacks. They force me to call in sick in every way. Normal panic attacks in people rarely last longer than two hours. Many of mine last two days, and I never, ever get used to them.

Okay. I get it. My comments were not quite appropriate. I'm sorry, okay? Just make it stop.

The thing is, I suspect a murkier factor I don't know about. Just intuition. I mean, it's hard to believe something got me from zero to banning in such record time by one of the nicest, most soft-spoken people I know whom I have had so much respect for for years. I can't exactly speculate what that may be, because I'm effectively in the dark, and only paranoid people mistake their fears for facts.

Logic tells me to calm down, except I can't calm down. All I can do is take my meds, try to elapse time and eat small amounts of food when my blood sugar crashes. I hate my amygdala so much sometimes.