One of the things I swore I'd do was to send Greenendorf a proper, sober apology. But now that I am feeling more "sober," I realize I have no idea how to do that. I mean, yeah, I know technical ways to deliver such an apology, but any delivery method would seem fundamentally (and counterproductively) rude when trying to contact someone who has decided to block me. I just don't know what to do about that, or if I can do anything about that. I don't want to be rude... I feel...kinda screwed on that one.

Also, I've been considering something else. When I made the original comments deemed inappropriate, I remember feeling an overwhelming enthusiasm and good will for the art I was commenting on. But if I was in fact misbehaving... You see, I already know I can have a tendency to get depressed. But I asked a trusted long-time friend if I seem...manic. And he said I totally do, and he was really surprised I hadn't judged that in myself. I was afraid of that, and I think I didn't want to judge that in myself. As much as I have resented the likes of Jake Kaufman doing very inappropriate things during their manic episodes...is it at all possible I myself could be bipolar? I'll have to ask my next available psychiatrist. Something tells me the answer could technically be no, as I don't necessarily have extended mania or extended depression, but instead more frequent random mood flips, sometimes several a day, sometimes one every several days. I just feel so bad about the offense I've caused.