-sighs loudly- As though it seems in my life i tend to be a large target for attack in a sense of emotion and other senses....All i want to do is see others happy and i tend to do what it takes to get there, I am a very loving and forgiving person but that is where my flaw is.....Most of my life especially these last 2 years from 18 years old to 20 years old i have met some pretty big assholes who have fucked over my life as i know it...but i have also met some amazing people in my time, I am tired of the pain and attacks i get but it seems to never stop as reality is I know there is a balance to balance all of this out but i don't know when i shall find it, I hope it to be this trip to my mate but i can only hope and do....as Yoda said "There is no try only do" So i must move on in my life even if the pain is tough.