Sometimes it takes a break here and there to get your best motivation. Im guilty of not wanting to draw at all when I have commissions due and I tend to feel guilty when I do personal art while I have a job to do.

Take some time for yourself and your own ideas and maybe afterwards the motivation will return to you.

yeah it's just weird cos i am normally really good at commissions (well, out of the about 10 i've gotten so far) and get them done fast

but now i'm like

nah

not happening today