I wanted a "special" night tonight with my "mate" . So, I went to spencers gifts today and bought a purple bustier, a white bondage collar and some cuffs. I got our little one to bed and I went in the bathroom and got around...he came in while I was finishing up, groaned, and told me he didnt wanna do anything tonight and he was too tired...idk why it tore me up so bad....It made me feel unattractive....I know I may be taking it to heart too much, but I am the type who needs reassurance...he never tells my I'm beautiful or anything....idk...I'm just hurt and moody. heh

I apologize for the sappy/boohoo journal. I never post crap like this. But, I had to get it out somewhere.

anywho, thanks for reading.

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