Feelings rant/venting ((don't read.....)))
10 years ago
I found out three days ago that my mom has developed cancer...so far everyone who's died on her side of the family died of cancer, I'm getting worried. I'm also scared because my sexuality is such a big secret that no one knows the real me.....everyday I wake up and plaster a smile to my face. I act happy the entire day.....but, it's hard.....I've been thinking about my life too much....I just....my only true friend is drifting from me.....my sister is my only person I can trust....if I cry I will get into trouble....I've felt with this for so many years that I ignore my feelings, I no longer have dreams, only nightmares. Everyone is the same thing. My day never changes, I finally decided to talk about it here....I just, I want to be Normal....I hate myself in all truth....I'm not the person everyone thinks I am....I'm just a faluire hiding in the shadows trying to fake my way through life. I ignore reality and only allow myself to think as a charactor in a show in watching or a book I'm reading....I like those worlds more than this one...
I just want to go someplace safe.....
I just want to go someplace safe.....

private_nopah
~privatenopah
My grandfather died of cancer almost 3 moths ago. It was probably the hardest thing I've dealt with in my life. So if you ever need to talk about anything like that, just note me. Also if you want to talk about anything, just talk to me about it. Even if you just want to talk. I might be a bit boring at first, but trust me, I'll ease up and adjust. I don't want you to feel like I felt, lost and alone. I still don't talk about things to anybody. I've been scared to a point where I go to school, go home, do homework, and go to sleep. Almost no social interaction. So please, talk to me. I would love to help you.

Ask-The-Fazzies
~ask-the-fazzies
OP
That's what I do...I just...idk...

private_nopah
~privatenopah
Hey, whatever you wanna talk about, I'll talk to you about it.

Ask-The-Fazzies
~ask-the-fazzies
OP
Thanks~ I'm feeling a bit better.

Ask-The-Fazzies
~ask-the-fazzies
OP
Thanks~ I have buddies all over cheering me up! I love you all so much ;w;

Springtrap
~springtrap
*he breaks character and gives you a comforting hug*

Ask-The-Fazzies
~ask-the-fazzies
OP
*hugs back* I just want to get away from it all for one day....