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Dec. 24 - March 20th
Happy Birthday Song Lyric Titles
March 20 - ~
Feeling different again. I cant help it. Sometimes I just..change a little. Its my 19th birthday. Birthdays and New Years are always times for big changes, and change things have.
I'm no longer taking requests, I'm no longer promising anyone gift art, and I am no longer putting pressure on myself to update so frequently. (No, Aya, i'm not copying Kira. I've been musing over this for a long time now, his journal just reminded me to tell you all.) I'm going to concentrate on doing art for myself, and only myself. If you happen to be IN my art, or if I happen to draw something for you, hooray. ^^; But I promise nothing. I want my art to go back to being colorful and pure, and full of heart. I want to be able to be proud of the things I draw again, instead of more often than not being disatisfied or annoyed at it.
I'm just looking for a little artistic freedom. Sorry if it bothers or offends anyone. Commissions are still open, but...they are very very fragile. I'm reserving any and every right to outright refuse them. The one commission I have going....*sigh* Please PM me, I'm sorry, but I cant for the life of me draw that, and i'm giving up. You didn't pay me, so you wont need a refund.
Uuumm...Anyway. I'm just trying to get some sparkle and pizazz back into my art. I always hate the feeling of having things I "should be drawing" looming over my head. Art, for me, is not supposed to be like work. Its supposed to be something I do to get away from stressing. I suppose this means that I shouldn't make art my job, and perhaps I will stop aspiring to that.
Speaking of which, this reminds me: I want to start focusing more on my writing. I've always had a better time forcing myself to write something than to draw something. So you may be seeing more stories from me, or you might not be. I'm not sure.
PEOPLE I TALK TO ON YIM and MSN MESSENGER: I'm getting freakishly annoyed with talking to people I hardly know or dont know at all. If you happen to be added to my MSN or my YIM, please dont be offended if I dont turn up very often. If I delete you off of my AIM, too bad for you, I probably dont appreciate talking to you. I'm sorry I sound like such an emo-bitch, buuuut...I'm getting really annoyed with people.
Aya, Gazzie, Tabby, do you guys have AIM? It'd be great if I could add you on AIM so I didnt have to mix you three in with my YIM crowd. You too, Ben.
I hope to be able to put out some more personal and more heartfelt art. Art is not a popularity contest, or at least it shouldn't be. I need to stop caring about how many people appreciate me for my art, and start appreciating my own self and my talent. I've been feeling rather down lately, and this is my way of coping.
Sorry if I seem less personable on FA, but this is the way its gonna go. Expect less doodlings and more actual art, perhaps. I really need it, guys. Looking at past stuff is getting really depressing.
Love you guys to pieces.
~Ellie~
Dec. 24 - March 20th
Happy Birthday Song Lyric Titles
March 20 - ~
Feeling different again. I cant help it. Sometimes I just..change a little. Its my 19th birthday. Birthdays and New Years are always times for big changes, and change things have.
I'm no longer taking requests, I'm no longer promising anyone gift art, and I am no longer putting pressure on myself to update so frequently. (No, Aya, i'm not copying Kira. I've been musing over this for a long time now, his journal just reminded me to tell you all.) I'm going to concentrate on doing art for myself, and only myself. If you happen to be IN my art, or if I happen to draw something for you, hooray. ^^; But I promise nothing. I want my art to go back to being colorful and pure, and full of heart. I want to be able to be proud of the things I draw again, instead of more often than not being disatisfied or annoyed at it.
I'm just looking for a little artistic freedom. Sorry if it bothers or offends anyone. Commissions are still open, but...they are very very fragile. I'm reserving any and every right to outright refuse them. The one commission I have going....*sigh* Please PM me, I'm sorry, but I cant for the life of me draw that, and i'm giving up. You didn't pay me, so you wont need a refund.
Uuumm...Anyway. I'm just trying to get some sparkle and pizazz back into my art. I always hate the feeling of having things I "should be drawing" looming over my head. Art, for me, is not supposed to be like work. Its supposed to be something I do to get away from stressing. I suppose this means that I shouldn't make art my job, and perhaps I will stop aspiring to that.
Speaking of which, this reminds me: I want to start focusing more on my writing. I've always had a better time forcing myself to write something than to draw something. So you may be seeing more stories from me, or you might not be. I'm not sure.
PEOPLE I TALK TO ON YIM and MSN MESSENGER: I'm getting freakishly annoyed with talking to people I hardly know or dont know at all. If you happen to be added to my MSN or my YIM, please dont be offended if I dont turn up very often. If I delete you off of my AIM, too bad for you, I probably dont appreciate talking to you. I'm sorry I sound like such an emo-bitch, buuuut...I'm getting really annoyed with people.
Aya, Gazzie, Tabby, do you guys have AIM? It'd be great if I could add you on AIM so I didnt have to mix you three in with my YIM crowd. You too, Ben.
I hope to be able to put out some more personal and more heartfelt art. Art is not a popularity contest, or at least it shouldn't be. I need to stop caring about how many people appreciate me for my art, and start appreciating my own self and my talent. I've been feeling rather down lately, and this is my way of coping.
Sorry if I seem less personable on FA, but this is the way its gonna go. Expect less doodlings and more actual art, perhaps. I really need it, guys. Looking at past stuff is getting really depressing.
Love you guys to pieces.
~Ellie~
And sorry to say, I don't have AIM =/ and I don't really wanna get AIM since I already have YIM and MSN >.<
Buuuut that doesn't mean I won't change my mind x3
And HAPPY FREAKIN' BIRFDAY!!! You are made of LOVE <3333
~If e're you doooooo~ other than that, i'm on YIM a lot, but invisible. So iffin I see you stoppin by, i'll say hello.
YAAAAY THANK YOU I AM MADE OF LOVE AND CHEESE
O.o Well isn't THAT an image you can take right to the bank... >>
That's what makes art unique: it should be your vision of your world, done for you. =D
And yes, art for yourself. =D I want to see the results~
Ellie just realized that she already knew the code for colors here.
She feels silly now that she hasn't been using it.
Also, =3 I already feel inspired.
I think that art artists do for themselves usually turns out better. XD Not because there's really a differnce, but...they tend to put more of themselves in it. X3 So yay, be inspired~
Attempts?
Also, I'm going to work more out of the worlds in my head and less out of the worlds of other people. A litle introspection, yes? *laughs*
That sounds verreh nice, and exciting for others to see. X3
I doubt this will work...
]= Coding, how I hate you now.
Wowzers, having issue sthere? *laughs*
<3 It is great, Ivan. It is so great.
ALSO TOMORROW YOU AND KAFFRIN SHALL HAS THINGS
<3 Everything is better in color~
I AM EXCITED AT THE PROSPECT OF THESE ELUSIVE THINGS. NOW GO DO SOME ART FOR YOU. <3
Anyways, I DO have it, but I don't have an account on it. And I don't feel like getting one, either. I only use it to do large file transfers with Kira and that's it.. and I feel really bad, because I'm using someone else's account and crap, so I don't even wanna get on it because I feel bad.