So, on Sunday the hunt for a proper person to talk to about my problems begins. I'm both scared and worried as it's always been really hard for me to talk about what's hurting (it's a long story) and it's time for me to look into some professional help. My friends whom I have told are very proud of me for stepping up to try and combat the problem and maybe find out once and for all why I feel the way I do. One can only hope for the best.