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10 years ago
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More cool artists I like!
artificialmonster 
Frengers 
krysto2012 
Catmonkshiro 
Kurikia 
Pixel_Star Hey everyone, I'd like to start off by saying thank you to each and every single one of you for being wonderful folks who've supported me a lot through the good and bad times in my life, you all mean a lot to me, and trust me I mean that. :3
I also wish to apologize if I'm a bit slow on here, been busy periodically and I just have been taking little mini-breaks here and there, so for folks who have tried to get my attention, I hope you aren't mad at the delays [though I totally understand if you are, and if so my apologies for that].
Anyways, have any of you ever had moments in your life, where you might've been poked a few times by someone, or just happened to find people who shared a lot in common, and it kind of faded in a sense? I've felt pretty much like that's been happening a fair lot over the past several months for myself. I think I've been wasting my time and life with trying to be friends with the wrong people every so often [this is not aimed toward anyone in particular don't worry] and chasing after things that really just have no chance of working out. It's been kind of depressing me and I guess I had to get it off my chest after bothering me for weeks now, I'm not angry at anyone, or anything, but I'm just disappointed in myself and how clingy and attached I can be towards people, I love everyone a lot, I just feel like I'm not as good of a person as everyone likes to think I am or makes me out to be.
EDIT: It also makes me feel like a lousy crappy friend too, I feel rotten inside when I think I said the wrong words or did the wrong thing and somehow I offended or ruined a friendship because of my stupidity or negligence. I wish if people didn't have an interest in me, they would make it very clear and direct, I like to be treated with honesty over being given the more fake "sugar-coated" treatment to make me "feel better", which it doesn't in the end.
That being said, I've felt overall much happier and I think I actually have a lot of luck in my life despite those things. I hope to keep my old friends, while making new friends as well, I'm grateful for everyone who sticks by me and puts up with me, I hope to be able to repay that someday. *Hugs everyone.*
Stay awesome everyone! ^w^
I also wish to apologize if I'm a bit slow on here, been busy periodically and I just have been taking little mini-breaks here and there, so for folks who have tried to get my attention, I hope you aren't mad at the delays [though I totally understand if you are, and if so my apologies for that].
Anyways, have any of you ever had moments in your life, where you might've been poked a few times by someone, or just happened to find people who shared a lot in common, and it kind of faded in a sense? I've felt pretty much like that's been happening a fair lot over the past several months for myself. I think I've been wasting my time and life with trying to be friends with the wrong people every so often [this is not aimed toward anyone in particular don't worry] and chasing after things that really just have no chance of working out. It's been kind of depressing me and I guess I had to get it off my chest after bothering me for weeks now, I'm not angry at anyone, or anything, but I'm just disappointed in myself and how clingy and attached I can be towards people, I love everyone a lot, I just feel like I'm not as good of a person as everyone likes to think I am or makes me out to be.
EDIT: It also makes me feel like a lousy crappy friend too, I feel rotten inside when I think I said the wrong words or did the wrong thing and somehow I offended or ruined a friendship because of my stupidity or negligence. I wish if people didn't have an interest in me, they would make it very clear and direct, I like to be treated with honesty over being given the more fake "sugar-coated" treatment to make me "feel better", which it doesn't in the end.
That being said, I've felt overall much happier and I think I actually have a lot of luck in my life despite those things. I hope to keep my old friends, while making new friends as well, I'm grateful for everyone who sticks by me and puts up with me, I hope to be able to repay that someday. *Hugs everyone.*
Stay awesome everyone! ^w^
But yes I've had moments like that in my life as well, as time goes on you go through quite a few of them really, people change, find different things, as do you, and you might not be as close as you were at one point in the past. But that doesn't mean things can change back to the better as well, you'll still be friends and everything will be fine more often than not~ As for chasing after things that have no chance of working out? If you want it enough and work at it hard enough, so long as it's not something unfathomably unreasonable, it'll work out, I'm sure of it. If you put in the work and make sure it gets done, it'll get done. I just hope you feel better here soon though Trask, you're a sweet person and the last person who would ever deserve to be depressed. If there's anything I can do just say the word, okay?
Change is something I don't always like for sure, I know it happens, but not every time it does do I feel happy for it, at least not immediately. *Holds close.* I appreciate those encouraging and supportive words, just being who you are, and being such a great and sweet person as you are every day is plenty enough for me, I really just need security sometimes... that and hugs, and company of really nice close friends.
Change isn't always a good thing but the world ensures it'll happen regardless. The only thing you can do is get back up after each punch and shake it off before getting ready for the next one. With any luck you'll get over them without too much trouble and have more good spots than bad. *Picks you up and snuggles you into my floofy fluffs, wrapping my wings around you in a big warm hug* I appreciate you being who you are too Trask, you're just as sweet, if not more so, and I hope ya know I'll always be here to help ya if you need some security 'n support~
*Snuggles and squeaks! blows bubbles, cuddling right in.* Awwww.... so warm and comforting, thank you little bro! And I appreciate you for being you too! And I shall happily offer the very same in return as well, thank you for your support so much. <3
:3
*hugs*
I really hope you'll feel better soon, dude. I love you a bunch!!
As for ME, I got no issues with you, but with was able to chat with you more. never see ya on Skype, and don't usually get a poke from you if you are on to try to keep in touch/get a stronger acquaintance or friendship.
I am very glad to hear that, I will work toward chatting to you more, I'd be more than willing to certainly forge a friendship with! :3
It's up to you if you wish to repay it, but you need not have to, giving is It's own reward y'know? :3
*Squeaks! blows bubbles and hugs back tight!* D'aawww.... well gosh, that really touches me. <3 Yeah, I always feel at least a bit guilty when I indulge in myself, but.... hey, I suppose even I deserve to have something once in a while huh?
Yeah hehe, I definitely can't argue with that one! :3
I always enjoy having a chat with you, and I'm confident that will remain so. ^w^ *Hugs!*
I feel you. It's frustrating when you try to make friends with someone, try to connect, invite them to do things, and receive nothing in response. Example: recently I had been invited to a small party with friends, and it was the best night I've had in a while, more so that I haven't been invited to a party (or even a social get-together) since 2011. Another: apparently people hook up after knowing each other for all of five minutes, yet actual bonding exercises do nothing. It's frustrating when you put effort into a friendship and get air in return.
*Sighs.* Ever since my childhood, I just never feel sure of myself anymore when befriending others, I even prefer the company of animals more.
People suck, Trask. But not all of them.
I uh... I assume you're just being silly and joking, right? ... I honestly have a horrible time telling when people aren't being serious. ;w;
I don't want our friendship to fade.
And I'll always try my best to ensure it won't.
And agreed, which also can make me a little on the clingy side [or rather, maybe a little more], but that's just because I'm afraid to lose friends.
Okay joking aside, I can try poking more if you want! x3