well maybe it could be cabin fever? I know I did the same things when I was reclusive as heck when I was dorming.

Hm, I can see that actually. Aside from art I also work as an in home caregiver so I don't really get out tons. Pretty much at home most days of the week. Even if it isn't the source of my issue, I could definitely see it exaggerating it.

Well I think that it would at least help if you take one day and just go somewhere and have some fun, if only it helps a little

I do go out with friends a couple of times a week to play tabletop RPGs which is a nice break, but perhaps taking "me days" might be beneficial too since sometimes scheduled social activities can feel forced after some time.

Yea but i mean go to a amusement park or anything that isnt in your weekly plan

Honestly, this is something I think about a lot! I've been meaning to make a journal regarding my thoughts on it, I guess this is even more incentive to do so!

The main thing I tell myself is that it's impossible to know everyone, so just meet a few people at a time with the knowledge that not every relationship is going to work. It sucks, but sometimes you just need to remove some people that you simply don't talk with, or enjoy the company of. On the other hand, other people just click right off the bat.

Hope you can find a healthy medium that works for you though!

Glad Im not the only one lol. Most of the time Im able to temper the bad feelings with what you said about not being able to know everyone or click with everyone. Its just realistic! Plus, having a few good friends that I did indeed click with is a good reminder too^^

However what usually brings on the woes for me is being afraid I pushed someone away that really wanted to cultivate friendship. I dont like the thought that I may have hurt somebodies feelings with my general indifference.

Thanks a bunch though, I appreciate your kind words and input, If you do end up making that journal I would like to see it!
Also, your icon is really cool!

;-; I know these feels...trust me your not alone!

Me in a nutshell; I feel you mate.

It could be a simple introversion/anxiety thing! It can get super overwhelming trying to keep in touch and "do a good job" at it! But the right people are understanding and will appreciate the attention you are able to give them without stressing out!

Word! Ah introversion, why you make things so complicated? Those reasons are why Im extremely grateful for the peeps that have stuck around! I just get anxiety sometimes over the possibility that I may have hurt somebody that might not get it due to my nature x.x.

You are very terrible at staying in touch but you are still my friend reguardless -hugs-

Lol thanks for putting up with me despite it, I really appreciate it *hugs*

Even if a friend doesn't make themselves known all the time doesn't mean that the time spent was wasted. If anything it makes the moments they were there all the more treasured.