Every day that passes by, i look at the world and i see how diverse it is. On how many communities are and their relationships to one another.

my life at home is both hell and heaven.

I am the son of a business owner and come these years to come i will be its owner. As much as i am nervous i worry day in and day out. Not for myself but for the people i care about. I may appear to be spoiled, anti social and competitive, but nothing stands in my way when something bothers those who i hold dear to me.

Never the less, ive seen my friends and how they act. How they socialize, and i realize, how much of my life i have missed out. All the experiences of my youth is gone and how my future wont hold merit but for what i am gonna take over.

I am gonna take over my mother store, i have the basic integrity to do it. And i will do it. But in the end i feel all the pressure of the world bearing down on me. It is a great experience to finally go on a trip of my own to new Brunswick and enjoy friendship with 2 great friends of mine. To enjoy the sights there and my wish to return should i be invited again.

But in my eyes, i feel that the rest of my life will be work and fighting. A constant torrent of harassment from an entity i cant fight that will may eventually take me or my moms business down. And my own emotions taking control of me even though i present a hard exterior.

I cant socialize, i suck at it. I cant hold a proper conversation to save my life. So i am pretty sure i will be stuck as an observer of what i envy and a enabler of saving a community.

I really hate to be emotional right now but right now, im starting to succumb to my emotions.

Sorry if a post like this bothers you guys, but i feel like i need to vent.