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I'm still here, just had life taking over. Small update. :)
10 years ago
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Well, in two months, my daughter will be here. I'm happy to report that despite the rough initial trimesters, I am finally able to eat. Bonnie Grace is doing amazingly, and she is normally sized for her age, and growing like a weed. She's healthy, and for the first time a couple of weeks ago, I got to see her face. She's...quite possibly the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. I see myself in her, even at this early stage, and it's...quite overwhelming.
The past few months have caused me to change in ways that needed to occur for a very long time. It's not just about me any more, and in reality, it never was...even though I was kidding myself to believe otherwise. My existence has purpose and meaning, and has allowed me to consider what I can do to better myself for the sake of being a better human being, wife, and mom.
I have the ability to make people happy, but for years, I've been going about it the wrong way. I'm moving on from that. I'm not going to let negativity and destructive influences play a part in my life any more. Life is too short, and there are too many positive things around me to focus on rather than something always having to be wrong. I have people that care for me and love me, and I for them. I'm grateful for that.
There are things in my life that I have done that I can never take back. There will always be things that I regret, people who I've hurt, and decisions that just can't be reversed. To those events, all I can offer is a broad spectrum apology and acknowledgement. I can't change the past, or the minds of the people involved in it. All that comes next is forward progression, advancement, and opportunity. I'm looking forward to what the future holds for my family and I.
It's time that I live up to the image I always wanted to be, not just talk about it. Believe me, my hiatus for the past few months was desperately needed. I've decided that once Bonnie's born, I won't start smoking again, and I'm going to limit my alcohol consumption to a moderate level, instead of the destructive path I was heading down. I'm going to start focusing more on improving my musical performance skills, as well as fursuit performance. I also want to start working on IMPROVING my artistic abilities by pushing myself further than I have in the past.
Thanks for reading, folks. I do appreciate it. :) Hope you guys are having a wonderful spring/summer!
The past few months have caused me to change in ways that needed to occur for a very long time. It's not just about me any more, and in reality, it never was...even though I was kidding myself to believe otherwise. My existence has purpose and meaning, and has allowed me to consider what I can do to better myself for the sake of being a better human being, wife, and mom.
I have the ability to make people happy, but for years, I've been going about it the wrong way. I'm moving on from that. I'm not going to let negativity and destructive influences play a part in my life any more. Life is too short, and there are too many positive things around me to focus on rather than something always having to be wrong. I have people that care for me and love me, and I for them. I'm grateful for that.
There are things in my life that I have done that I can never take back. There will always be things that I regret, people who I've hurt, and decisions that just can't be reversed. To those events, all I can offer is a broad spectrum apology and acknowledgement. I can't change the past, or the minds of the people involved in it. All that comes next is forward progression, advancement, and opportunity. I'm looking forward to what the future holds for my family and I.
It's time that I live up to the image I always wanted to be, not just talk about it. Believe me, my hiatus for the past few months was desperately needed. I've decided that once Bonnie's born, I won't start smoking again, and I'm going to limit my alcohol consumption to a moderate level, instead of the destructive path I was heading down. I'm going to start focusing more on improving my musical performance skills, as well as fursuit performance. I also want to start working on IMPROVING my artistic abilities by pushing myself further than I have in the past.
Thanks for reading, folks. I do appreciate it. :) Hope you guys are having a wonderful spring/summer!
Good luck, although it sounds to me like you got this. C: In two months, your life is going to dramatically change in a good way forever. Keep us posted!