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Wish I was a better artist..
10 years ago
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I wish I could draw / colour better, just feels like such a tedious thing. Looking at my Tumblr page just gets me down as it's a terrible reminder of how lonely I can feel. Then again, if my drawings was better, I seriously doubt it would make any difference. I was hoping to use it as a questions blog instead but it just feels so dead, it's not just on Tumblr that feels dead but the whole internet.
To think I have been drawing for a year and 9 months and it feels like I have a long way before becoming better. Though I will likely not be uploading stuff anymore as you never really gain anything from doing it. No encouragement or anything for that matter. Just get made fun of, funny as noone has actually sent me a message on Tumblr or here so just goes to show that they think they can do whatever they want behind a keyboard.
I don't consider my drawings horribly bad, in fact I think they're far from that, but it does make me wonder as when I look at other pictures, I don't always consider them good yet alot of other people seem to, I really don't understand why it is like that, especially when there is a similar facial expression to something let's say I've done. Funnily enough people in person think my drawings are amazing whereas uploading them online is the complete opposite, it's interesting how it's different from one place to another. This also makes it hard for me to know whether my drawings are good or not, really confusing. :(
I will try and focus on the "fun" part of it, sadly I haven't even picked my tablet up for about 2 weeks now, I just feel like I can't enjoy it anymore, might be as I have exams coming up as well but I don't even feel like working on my coursework as again, I just don't see the whole outcome of it, just feels all pointless to me.
As hypocritical as this might sound, I am considering trying Inkbunny as a last resort, we will have to see as it will probably be the same situation there as everywhere else. I do think of the positives but nothing really changes which doesn't help.
To think I have been drawing for a year and 9 months and it feels like I have a long way before becoming better. Though I will likely not be uploading stuff anymore as you never really gain anything from doing it. No encouragement or anything for that matter. Just get made fun of, funny as noone has actually sent me a message on Tumblr or here so just goes to show that they think they can do whatever they want behind a keyboard.
I don't consider my drawings horribly bad, in fact I think they're far from that, but it does make me wonder as when I look at other pictures, I don't always consider them good yet alot of other people seem to, I really don't understand why it is like that, especially when there is a similar facial expression to something let's say I've done. Funnily enough people in person think my drawings are amazing whereas uploading them online is the complete opposite, it's interesting how it's different from one place to another. This also makes it hard for me to know whether my drawings are good or not, really confusing. :(
I will try and focus on the "fun" part of it, sadly I haven't even picked my tablet up for about 2 weeks now, I just feel like I can't enjoy it anymore, might be as I have exams coming up as well but I don't even feel like working on my coursework as again, I just don't see the whole outcome of it, just feels all pointless to me.
As hypocritical as this might sound, I am considering trying Inkbunny as a last resort, we will have to see as it will probably be the same situation there as everywhere else. I do think of the positives but nothing really changes which doesn't help.
