Ok now I am finding me typing certain things out can really help so here goes. Not many people know this or would even guess it but I happen to have asperger's syndrome, if I recall it's a form of autism it's mild but sometimes having it is not so grand. I am someone who would say something wrong to a person and not realize pretty much I have a bit of a hard time understanding some people's emotions, it got me in trouble many times in school as a kid but I am trying to learn to understand it still have trouble but am getting better at it. Another thing is that I was one who had a hard time making friends, but as I grew up I began to make friends I just had to find a way to make it happen may seem odd how I explain it but for me it makes sense. One thing I am not fond of is that my hearing is a bit sensitive so if someone is talking to loud it really bothers me, I had to tell my friends to not talk too loud when around me and they happily understood. Sometimes I am one who does not keep eye contact easily so if I do not make eye contact or ignore you so please don't take it personally, I just have not gotten to know the person better I just got to warm up to you. There are certain times I take things literally that's if I am unfamiliar with a person but if I know you well I can get if you are being sarcastic or not may seem odd but it makes sense to me. But I am pretty good with pattern recognition, now I can not solve a rubix cube well not yet anyway, the pattern recognition is a hard one for me to explain but yeah it's pretty good. The one thing that can cue someone that i have it is if I begin to get nervous or worried too much it triggers a panic/anxiety attack where I begin to cry and almost hyperventilate and it drains me physically and mentally. Anyway yes I have asperger's syndrome but with me I am the sweetest, most kind hearted person you'll ever meet, I am even someone who can be the person you vent to. Man I sure do write a lot in the journal but hey for me it helps sometimes, to those who read this all the way through I hope you do not look at me differently for having it, just to accept me for me that's all I ask.