I hate this place
10 years ago
Glimpse The Thoughts of Jack the Beaver
Well I made it home. And I wish I could turn around and go back.
I hate this place. I want to kill myself instead of being here. I get home and my mother's reaction is to tell me to avoid a dead bird, let me and Rimme carry our own stuff and to look at me with just a look of disgust.
I'm not joking either, if I have to live here another year I will shoot myself. This place is becoming my hell, I can't live here. I'm not coming home to anyone, I'm coming home to an emotional dead zone.
I don't know what to do. I hate being here because I have to pretend. I'm not a furry, I'm not a Catholic and I'm just some asshole. That has to stop, I need to be me. And I'm so sick of having to bite my tongue or being afraid all the people here are going to lose it and burst.
A special thanks to
rimme and
matthiasrat for what they've done for me. Rimme for being my friend, riding with me and sharing a room with me. Matthias for saying the Rosary and attending Mass with me. The TSA group for letting me know how it feels to be loved. I'm not used to that.
I have to get out of here. I can't live here anymore.
I hate this place. I want to kill myself instead of being here. I get home and my mother's reaction is to tell me to avoid a dead bird, let me and Rimme carry our own stuff and to look at me with just a look of disgust.
I'm not joking either, if I have to live here another year I will shoot myself. This place is becoming my hell, I can't live here. I'm not coming home to anyone, I'm coming home to an emotional dead zone.
I don't know what to do. I hate being here because I have to pretend. I'm not a furry, I'm not a Catholic and I'm just some asshole. That has to stop, I need to be me. And I'm so sick of having to bite my tongue or being afraid all the people here are going to lose it and burst.
A special thanks to
rimme and
matthiasrat for what they've done for me. Rimme for being my friend, riding with me and sharing a room with me. Matthias for saying the Rosary and attending Mass with me. The TSA group for letting me know how it feels to be loved. I'm not used to that.I have to get out of here. I can't live here anymore.
FA+

If you hate his family, you hate him--there's no getting around that. They shouldn't treat him as they do but they are his family and he is their family.
And please be careful with regard to curses--those are real, and not child's play. Don't EVER inflict one unless you want one inflicted upon yourself and your own family.
Goodbye.
Dominus tecum