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10 years ago
I think I’ve figured out why I don’t like writing journals but it makes me feel like a very insular person (bear with me I will get to the point… eventually). I figure it is because in writing a journal, you have to assume that people care, because a journal’s intent is to be read by people. People, that you must presume have some pre conceived interest in you and thus want to know about you. So what it boils down to for me is, “why should people care about me?” a huge self-esteem issue that I’m likely never to conquer. I find it hard to understand why anyone should want to invest their time on me because I’m nothing special. The reason why I won’t conquer this, because I think it is perfectly reasonable. However it is a negative thing because for example it means I feel unimportant and 'in the way', my journals being wasted cyber space.
BUT the reason I am making this journal is to inform anyone who is interested xD; that form this Saturday I will be in America, working over the summer times. So my FA and indeed any kind of online presence that I have will fade into obscurity until I get back sometime in August. It sucks, as I feel like I’ve really shown some momentum these last two weeks, meeting new people and producing commissions. Something of a huge personal mile stone, to which I can only thank the commissioners, seriously guys you’ve really helped me overcome a huge anxiety block. Something I can’t thank you enough for.
I would also like to thank all watchers, old and new and everyone who faves my work. For one I am awful for getting around and doing it personally on peoples profiles. And also you all bolster my confidence massively and I suppose that without that, this profile would have died when I had intended to make it so.
I have a lot to be thankful for… so thank you!
(In regards to the commissions I have thus far produced 7 out of the 10 I was hoping and will likely be working on number 8 sometime soon. However, I will be closing them on the Friday 19th as it is unlikely I will be able to complete anything after that date until my return. Once again I can only humbly thank you guys, you’ve kept me fed! (XD; I’m in a rather complex financial situation))
;D thank you for reading!
BUT the reason I am making this journal is to inform anyone who is interested xD; that form this Saturday I will be in America, working over the summer times. So my FA and indeed any kind of online presence that I have will fade into obscurity until I get back sometime in August. It sucks, as I feel like I’ve really shown some momentum these last two weeks, meeting new people and producing commissions. Something of a huge personal mile stone, to which I can only thank the commissioners, seriously guys you’ve really helped me overcome a huge anxiety block. Something I can’t thank you enough for.
I would also like to thank all watchers, old and new and everyone who faves my work. For one I am awful for getting around and doing it personally on peoples profiles. And also you all bolster my confidence massively and I suppose that without that, this profile would have died when I had intended to make it so.
I have a lot to be thankful for… so thank you!
(In regards to the commissions I have thus far produced 7 out of the 10 I was hoping and will likely be working on number 8 sometime soon. However, I will be closing them on the Friday 19th as it is unlikely I will be able to complete anything after that date until my return. Once again I can only humbly thank you guys, you’ve kept me fed! (XD; I’m in a rather complex financial situation))
;D thank you for reading!
Hope you are safe and sound buddy and having a good time.