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16 years ago
Friend: "I'm currently smashing my face against the keyboard until an RPG falls out of the computer."
Eugh!
This is mainly a self-aimed rant, so if you can't be bothered with this shit, or are only going to be negative, please, hold your tongue, because I'm not in the mood to be civil.
Why is it that I just -can't- meet new people? I'm not talking about online interaction here; I'm perfectly capable of talking to someone on here or MSN or the like. But as soon as it comes down to meeting someone IRL (who I haven't conversed with online beforehand) my confidence just hits the sink!
I'm meant to be going to a Londonfur Meet in a couple of weeks when I'm down at my Pet's (
halohusky) as she wants to socialise and fursuit. So, yea, no biggie. Or atleast it -shouldn't- be. I somehow, for some reason just lock up with the idea of going to this meet and knowing practically no-one! Yes, I'll know a few faces, and will be able to socialise with them. But then the worry of me annoying those few people or getting on their nerves or even just latching onto them takes place. I just can't win with myself. >v<
What makes it worse is that I'm so PARANOID about what people think of me. It's like, me and my pup have had some pretty rough history (Due to my fault. Like, 100% of the time has been my fault .v.) which has no doubt become public knowing to some people. How can I possibly walk up to these people and say "Hi" when I know/feel that they've already judged me before I even look at them. I hate being unliked, which is why I always try to settle things between foes and the like. I'm currently talking to her about my problem, but I just keep repeating myself, and her words aren't sinking into my skull. I don't know why it matters so much to me, but it does.
I just don't know what to do. Do I focus, sit down, shut up and just get on with it? Do I go seek some help for this? Do I curl up and just try and be invisble to the world? I just don't know >v<.
I'm such a pathetic pile of feathers right now TvT.
And to add to it, it's the end of the penultimate term at my college this week! Meaning, I have to finish practically 6/7 assignments in 4 days. Granted, I have from 9am to 5pm each day, and I've managed to do 4 extra ones today alone. But it's just stress that I don't need.
Again, I relitterate.
EUGH!
-Az
This is mainly a self-aimed rant, so if you can't be bothered with this shit, or are only going to be negative, please, hold your tongue, because I'm not in the mood to be civil.
Why is it that I just -can't- meet new people? I'm not talking about online interaction here; I'm perfectly capable of talking to someone on here or MSN or the like. But as soon as it comes down to meeting someone IRL (who I haven't conversed with online beforehand) my confidence just hits the sink!
I'm meant to be going to a Londonfur Meet in a couple of weeks when I'm down at my Pet's (
halohusky) as she wants to socialise and fursuit. So, yea, no biggie. Or atleast it -shouldn't- be. I somehow, for some reason just lock up with the idea of going to this meet and knowing practically no-one! Yes, I'll know a few faces, and will be able to socialise with them. But then the worry of me annoying those few people or getting on their nerves or even just latching onto them takes place. I just can't win with myself. >v<What makes it worse is that I'm so PARANOID about what people think of me. It's like, me and my pup have had some pretty rough history (Due to my fault. Like, 100% of the time has been my fault .v.) which has no doubt become public knowing to some people. How can I possibly walk up to these people and say "Hi" when I know/feel that they've already judged me before I even look at them. I hate being unliked, which is why I always try to settle things between foes and the like. I'm currently talking to her about my problem, but I just keep repeating myself, and her words aren't sinking into my skull. I don't know why it matters so much to me, but it does.
I just don't know what to do. Do I focus, sit down, shut up and just get on with it? Do I go seek some help for this? Do I curl up and just try and be invisble to the world? I just don't know >v<.
I'm such a pathetic pile of feathers right now TvT.
And to add to it, it's the end of the penultimate term at my college this week! Meaning, I have to finish practically 6/7 assignments in 4 days. Granted, I have from 9am to 5pm each day, and I've managed to do 4 extra ones today alone. But it's just stress that I don't need.
Again, I relitterate.
EUGH!
-Az
I know its not my place to say, but problems between you two should have stayed between the both of you. Alot of furs shouldn;t know what happened. Heck, I heard what happened from my friend >.<
But enough of that!
Drinks for you if you do decide to go =3 And nibbles... As in food, not the.. you know... me actually nibbling you :S That would be freakin weeeeeeird lawls.
Seriously, your like my little brother, and I'm not into that whole 'incest' thing xD Though I will give you a hug if need be =3
But yer, its totally up to you if you go, and if you are gonna go, I'd be more then happy to hang out with you, been a looooooooooong time since I last saw you xD
know what you mean my username may say silentandshy but that more of RL then online >.>
hope you feel better soon pal
don't worry to much about it