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Life has only gotten worse *rant*
10 years ago
As the title says, my life sucks. Like, terrible. It's never been this bad and I can't take this. And it's all because of my parents. I need to get away from this house.
So, heres a story. Last year, my freshman year of college, I didn't want to do marching band, for reasons. Then about halfway through the semester, I realized that I missed it, and I kinda wanted to do it. Time skip to when I got home for summer break. I told my mom that I might want to do it, so we get the forms and everything. But I made my decision without thinking about the positives and negatives of it, things that are good and things that aren't. The only good thing I thought of is that I could possibly make friends. Which won't happen because I'm antisocial. The bad things: summer in kansas (yes, that's bad, 110+ and humid), more busy schedule (which is bad because I had a terrible semester last semester and I need to just focus on classes this year, marching band will only distract me from my schoolwork), I'll be missing out on work (I'll have two jobs next year, learn more responsibility and make more money, which I desperately need), and most importantly my social anxiety issues (which is the worst, because I can't even handle talking in from of 5 people let alone playing an instrument in exact formation in the 100+ degree weather in front of 40,000 people........). So yeah, the cons kinda beat the pros. But my parents. They don't listen. They don't understand what goes through my head, they don't understand me. Because I changed my mind and decided I don't want to do marching band, they aren't letting me go to Kansas State next year.
That's why my life has been terrible. They are taking away my opportunity for success just because I WANT to be successful and focus on school! I'll be going to a community college but the education here is nowhere as good as the education at Kansas. I want to succeed in school and my parents think that adding another obstacle in my life will help me learn deal with being busy. That's not how I work. I need to get used to a less busy schedule first if I want to get used to a busy schedule.. I already have work, classes, exams, and a whole bunch of other stuff. I can't handle marching band... Yet they're making me. Since I'm not, I'm not going to Kansas.
That isn't the only thing though. They are just being over controlling and treating me like a child. I need to move out of this house before I explode.......
So, heres a story. Last year, my freshman year of college, I didn't want to do marching band, for reasons. Then about halfway through the semester, I realized that I missed it, and I kinda wanted to do it. Time skip to when I got home for summer break. I told my mom that I might want to do it, so we get the forms and everything. But I made my decision without thinking about the positives and negatives of it, things that are good and things that aren't. The only good thing I thought of is that I could possibly make friends. Which won't happen because I'm antisocial. The bad things: summer in kansas (yes, that's bad, 110+ and humid), more busy schedule (which is bad because I had a terrible semester last semester and I need to just focus on classes this year, marching band will only distract me from my schoolwork), I'll be missing out on work (I'll have two jobs next year, learn more responsibility and make more money, which I desperately need), and most importantly my social anxiety issues (which is the worst, because I can't even handle talking in from of 5 people let alone playing an instrument in exact formation in the 100+ degree weather in front of 40,000 people........). So yeah, the cons kinda beat the pros. But my parents. They don't listen. They don't understand what goes through my head, they don't understand me. Because I changed my mind and decided I don't want to do marching band, they aren't letting me go to Kansas State next year.
That's why my life has been terrible. They are taking away my opportunity for success just because I WANT to be successful and focus on school! I'll be going to a community college but the education here is nowhere as good as the education at Kansas. I want to succeed in school and my parents think that adding another obstacle in my life will help me learn deal with being busy. That's not how I work. I need to get used to a less busy schedule first if I want to get used to a busy schedule.. I already have work, classes, exams, and a whole bunch of other stuff. I can't handle marching band... Yet they're making me. Since I'm not, I'm not going to Kansas.
That isn't the only thing though. They are just being over controlling and treating me like a child. I need to move out of this house before I explode.......
