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10 years ago
Hi guys
Sorry for the absence. So many stuff has been happening in my life, most of them bad.
Since some people are asking where did i go and what is happening, i will tell you what´s happening. If anyone was really worried anyway...
I´ve been fighting against depression that insisted to be stronger than myself lately.
Tried to kill myself, had some bad events (including a few at my job), fought with my parents, geez...my life turned upside down.
Trying to keep myself together and avoid the stress as much as i can. Which is hard.
I wasn´t drawing. In fact i wasn´t doing anything at all besides going to work and sleep. Only now i´ve been starting to go back to Steam to play some games. (sometimes i end up just starting the game and leaving the pc and the game on, but not playing it).
So stressed, bored and tired of my life. My doctor is giving me even more strong medicines and really...i´m getting tired of paying for stronger and expensive medicines. Seriously...until when i will keep in this shitty state?
Then that´s why i´m trying to make 2 projects of mine to become real. They are taking a lot of time and effort...but at least i feel that i´m doing something produtive for myself. Because most of time i feel useless to everything and everybody.
In some weeks it will be my vacations. I hope i can start to draw again soon.
And i hope i can get rid of this damn depression that is ruining my life.
I want to feel ok, i want to find a good and caring bf, i want to make my projects, and so on...
So once again, sorry for the absence and lack of reply.
Hope to be posting regularly here again asap.
Sorry for the absence. So many stuff has been happening in my life, most of them bad.
Since some people are asking where did i go and what is happening, i will tell you what´s happening. If anyone was really worried anyway...
I´ve been fighting against depression that insisted to be stronger than myself lately.
Tried to kill myself, had some bad events (including a few at my job), fought with my parents, geez...my life turned upside down.
Trying to keep myself together and avoid the stress as much as i can. Which is hard.
I wasn´t drawing. In fact i wasn´t doing anything at all besides going to work and sleep. Only now i´ve been starting to go back to Steam to play some games. (sometimes i end up just starting the game and leaving the pc and the game on, but not playing it).
So stressed, bored and tired of my life. My doctor is giving me even more strong medicines and really...i´m getting tired of paying for stronger and expensive medicines. Seriously...until when i will keep in this shitty state?
Then that´s why i´m trying to make 2 projects of mine to become real. They are taking a lot of time and effort...but at least i feel that i´m doing something produtive for myself. Because most of time i feel useless to everything and everybody.
In some weeks it will be my vacations. I hope i can start to draw again soon.
And i hope i can get rid of this damn depression that is ruining my life.
I want to feel ok, i want to find a good and caring bf, i want to make my projects, and so on...
So once again, sorry for the absence and lack of reply.
Hope to be posting regularly here again asap.
Wishing for the best for you, buddy! *Snuggle* Just keep on truckin', maybe someday the world will treat us right.
Don't be afraid to seek help, dear. Demand your doctor to come up with something if you're feeling suicidal. I've been seeing a psychiatrist now for three years and that has helped me a lot with my depression. Perhaps that doc could send you forward to some specialist?
*hug* I've been there. I know how it feels. I was diagnosed with medium to severe depression few years ago, when I had to drop out from school as I didn't have a hold of my life. Just believe me when I say things will improve. It's only your brain that keeps saying those nasty things and bringing you down. Just because your brain comes up with things, doesn't mean they are real.
And if you ever feel lonely or a depression attack strikes, don't be afraid to send me a message. We are here for you :)