Doran's Soapbox: Thank you America
10 years ago
Those of you who have known me for long enough may recall a journal I posted a few years back explaining that although I'm American by birth, I was moving permanently to the United Kingdom. There were a lot of reasons for this, but one of the main ones, and the one that really made it more of a necessity than a choice, was that the US possessed no legal avenue by which I could spend my life with one of the people I love. Because he happened to a) be British, and b) have boy parts. (Author's note: I also have boy parts)
In the UK, a consistent nationwide legal framework for same-sex civil partnership existed that granted the same legal rights to same-sex couple as marriage. More recently, they've done away with the double standard in naming and just made same-sex marriage legal. My legally-valid-but-apparently-spiritually-meaningless-husband-analogue-unit and I will be upgrading the next time we're both able to get to a government office up in Scotland.
In the US, I've watched the road toward marriage equality be, until now, a broken and piecemeal process, addressed on a state-by-state basis where your life relationship can have legal recognition in one place and no validity in another, and good luck trying to make sense of anything that crossed national borders. So here I remain, an American expatriate in the UK. England is where my roots have sunk down now, and where I've committed my life and career to staying, but with the recent Supreme Court decision on marriage equality I can finally feel significantly less ashamed and apologetic about the nation of my birth when I try and explain to people why it is the way it is. So for this, I am tremendously grateful.
(That same awkwardness will still be in the air when my colleagues ask me about the US public's understanding of anthropogenic climate change and why we can't seem to stop shooting black people, but one thing at a time I guess.)
There's still a long way to go. The negative responses I've seen to the decision by those who feel it's a terrible thing highlight that, while public perception is slowly progressing away from historical bigotry, there are still a lot of people who just don't understand the issue and feel that their way of life is somehow threatened by people they find distasteful having the same rights they do. I'm sorry to put it so bluntly, but I've had a very long time to think about my feelings on this issue and that is, quite simply, the clear truth of it.
It's an enormous step in the right direction, and marks America's willingness to drag itself, kicking and screaming if necessary, into vaguely modern times. So for all of you who have been fighting, petitioning, convincing your family and friends, and making your life dreams wait while this came to pass, congratulations.
In the UK, a consistent nationwide legal framework for same-sex civil partnership existed that granted the same legal rights to same-sex couple as marriage. More recently, they've done away with the double standard in naming and just made same-sex marriage legal. My legally-valid-but-apparently-spiritually-meaningless-husband-analogue-unit and I will be upgrading the next time we're both able to get to a government office up in Scotland.
In the US, I've watched the road toward marriage equality be, until now, a broken and piecemeal process, addressed on a state-by-state basis where your life relationship can have legal recognition in one place and no validity in another, and good luck trying to make sense of anything that crossed national borders. So here I remain, an American expatriate in the UK. England is where my roots have sunk down now, and where I've committed my life and career to staying, but with the recent Supreme Court decision on marriage equality I can finally feel significantly less ashamed and apologetic about the nation of my birth when I try and explain to people why it is the way it is. So for this, I am tremendously grateful.
(That same awkwardness will still be in the air when my colleagues ask me about the US public's understanding of anthropogenic climate change and why we can't seem to stop shooting black people, but one thing at a time I guess.)
There's still a long way to go. The negative responses I've seen to the decision by those who feel it's a terrible thing highlight that, while public perception is slowly progressing away from historical bigotry, there are still a lot of people who just don't understand the issue and feel that their way of life is somehow threatened by people they find distasteful having the same rights they do. I'm sorry to put it so bluntly, but I've had a very long time to think about my feelings on this issue and that is, quite simply, the clear truth of it.
It's an enormous step in the right direction, and marks America's willingness to drag itself, kicking and screaming if necessary, into vaguely modern times. So for all of you who have been fighting, petitioning, convincing your family and friends, and making your life dreams wait while this came to pass, congratulations.
As for the "Cops shooting Black people" Issue, in my opinion, there are a multitude of reasons why:
In several of the videos present, we see the black people RUN from the police. Really? That's like going up to a guard dog and then slapping it. You are GOING to get bit.
That said, I am not blind to the real world. There are racists, but not by location. Most people that I have known to be racist are "Made" that way by family and situation. To make a point: If you live in a community where the population is 70 or more percent black, and has a high crime rate, especially against other races, then you're more than likely going to become prejudice of the people living there. Hell, I'm probably not that much better than the people I described, as I live in a community of over 60 percent black, and specifically, part of the black district of my state.
Lastly, we're only getting the one side of the story! We don't hear about cops being killed, or "Black Cops" killing white people. This is the double guilt standard currently in place today in America. One case that I will point out, recently, was that incident with the black man getting beaten up before forced into the back of a police van. The NAACP were ready to start a riot, until one detail popped up: One of the charged Cops was black. Then, like a dog caught sniffing up the wrong butt, they turned tail and covered their own asses.
Okay, Mild rage vent over, feel free to counter anything I say, but I must implore you, ONLY SMART PEOPLE. For the love of what ever deity is out there, I can handle smart people, it's idiots lost in their own stupidity that truly drive my brain cells to overload.
Britain's grown up with its fair share of racial tensions, but it hasn't left the legacy of animosity in the institutions and public consciousness of the country the way it seems to have in the US. Europeans in general also tend to spend a lot less time shooting one another than Americans.
I'm a coward. I'm a single, lonely, reserved, part-playing coward. I know what I am. And I have nothing but respect for those who take to the streets, and nothing but rejoicing for those who have found something I hope for but know I won't find. (And that's really, truly okay.) I just... do what I can. I fight for civilisation by teaching the kids not simply about what it is but about what it should be.
*smiles and hugs, and noses your cheek* I'm such a coward, lovely drake.
For what it's worth though, the things you describe having done are very much not the actions of a coward. It's a brave thing to be able to stand up and bare yourself to the world and say, 'this is me, this is who I am, and this is my story.' And the way things are right now around the issue of homosexuality, I think stories like that are exactly what a lot of people need to hear. To realise that these people clamouring for the right to marry each other are just normal people, friends, co-workers, family members, and all they want is the same rights that most other people have. And to realise that granting this right really has no negative impact at all on anyone else.
So yeah, good day. :) *hugs you tightly* And keep up the great work!
Don't confuse "falling in love" with "being in love" or "love": love is cognitive, love is associative - to a degree it's dissociative, being able to see someone with all their faults and yet continuing to desire their company anyway --- Doesn't that sound strange, intellectually? When you think of it in those terms, isn't it the most peculiar, the most contradictory concept? That someone whom you've spent so much time with is someone who can drive you crazy, who isn't who you'd necessarily choose ("objectively") to be with, all things being equal --- And yet you did choose to be with them, and you choose to remain with them each passing day. Doesn't that seem strange?
And yet... and yet... And yet we do: we do remain with people. We do choose to remain with those people, not least because when we met and fell in love we were in absolutely no way thinking objectively... and isn't it wonderful?
But love is not the easiest of emotions. Fear is the easiest, because it's the earliest: it's the one that's hard-wired into the part of the brain that existed even before the reptilian part. It's the part that keeps fish larva alive and safe, the part which is hard-wired into the limbic system and the amygdala, the part which screams, "RUN!" - and we run; "FIGHT!" - and we fight. And afterwards we wonder why. But we can't help but listen: we're made that way.
Love... oh, love, it's so difficult. So easy, and yet so difficult. Takes so many compromises, demands so much of us as people, takes up so much of our lives, and is mandated by Man and blessed (so we're told) by Heaven --- but that's not love, that's Love: emotional love, which comes out of being around someone, the persistence of a person in our lives whose presence we miss when they're not there, who feels like they "complete us" (or so I'm told). Love, plain and simple honest love, human-kindness, fellow-feeling, brotherly goodness --- that's taking the time to quiet the voices in the back of our heads that make us want to do or say or think dark things.
Is it wrong that such voices exist? No. Is it wrong to listen to them? Not always. Is it wrong to act on their impulses? Mostly, I think.
But love... love is hard. Love love is easy -- so I'm told... love, that's a lifelong struggle for us. Perhaps not in the future: maybe one day the time will have come when we don't have that struggle, when our children's children's children don't have those voices in their heads because their parents didn't stimulate them, that our race will begin to move forward. Call it "childhood's end", if you like. One day.
Love. One word, which stands for so many.
*smiles, and hugs again* I wish you love, dear friend. I wish you love and joy, in every one of your days.
But as you say, it's also incredibly hard. Because it's so much more complicated and multifaceted than fear or anger. Love asks, demands, so much more of us. It demands that we rise above base instinct, that we let go of hate, that we overcome our fear. It demands that we set aside who we are, just a little, and make somebody else just as important to us as the self and part of our own identity. It demands that we become better people.
I wish you love too, my friend. However you find it, for there are so many different kinds. I'm very proud to call you my friend, so you've definitely got one kind right here. *holds you gently in a wing*
I've never felt that which you've described, that "rightness", that "passion". I've felt desire, and I've felt the need for someone else... I've say to myself I've been "in love" a couple of times: I look back on it and wonder if it really was. And for me, you know, giving in to it isn't easy: emotions are difficult for me, and gravity, well, it's not as though we have a choice in that. *chuckle*
I don't know what love demands of us. I don't know that it's becoming "better" people, maybe just "different" people. But you could well be right. It's entirely known for me to be quite wrong, after all! *laugh* Fundamentally, sweet dragon, I just don't know: I can only see love intellectually; I don't know if I can feel it. And the things that I do, it's not about love, it's about respect: after all, in the non-romantic sense, the former emerges from the latter.
Thank you for being my friend, gentle drake. *smiles and noses, and doesn't know what else to say there*