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It's unfair and feels weird
16 years ago
x posted from LJ
now this is going to be a bit weird, but bear with me on this.
Past few weeks, I've been angry to myself because I'm happy, positive and life is good for me, almost seems like I have two personalities.
The reason i've been angry to such a silly thing, is that, indeed I am lucky in many perspectives, my friends are not that fortunate.... why?
I don't get it, i have friends that life seems to kick in the head almost daily, I just go on. I want to relate, i want to be there for them, i cannot help them because there's no way i could help, the problems are a bit different... BAH, still, i seem to be happy and enjoy life.
It feels... unfair, i feel like i should not be happy and enjoying life, while my very good friends suffer, way or another.
Because i aint a saint, some of them are double the saint i am. I'm in general considered very evil person by most standards...
Interesting afterthought, it sounds like something... not very standard in the "me" driven world of today, to feel this way.
Ofcourse i still am pretty selfish of a guy
just sharing a quick thought with y'all
now this is going to be a bit weird, but bear with me on this.
Past few weeks, I've been angry to myself because I'm happy, positive and life is good for me, almost seems like I have two personalities.
The reason i've been angry to such a silly thing, is that, indeed I am lucky in many perspectives, my friends are not that fortunate.... why?
I don't get it, i have friends that life seems to kick in the head almost daily, I just go on. I want to relate, i want to be there for them, i cannot help them because there's no way i could help, the problems are a bit different... BAH, still, i seem to be happy and enjoy life.
It feels... unfair, i feel like i should not be happy and enjoying life, while my very good friends suffer, way or another.
Because i aint a saint, some of them are double the saint i am. I'm in general considered very evil person by most standards...
Interesting afterthought, it sounds like something... not very standard in the "me" driven world of today, to feel this way.
Ofcourse i still am pretty selfish of a guy
just sharing a quick thought with y'all
but yeah, good advice there, heh
My ex-boss said that usually when I'm like that (down and depressed), it will go over really soon and I will make a comeback with twice of more energy.
It's a shame that not everyone can overcome this shit they call life.. but that's what friends are for!