I did allot of stuff this week that I don't do anymore, hanging with my friends. Having some good fun. One thing I didn't do is draw :( or anything else productive.
Last week I suddenly started doing stuff I'm sposed to to get beyond this towns shitty highschool. I upgraded my work level to half assed, rather than none at all. I started making plans to ditch this worthless town and go somewhere else, to a city like I want to be. Then I gave up on it, there's no point to trying to escape. Then I turned really emo again.
Hanging with my friends all week helped.
Sometimes I come up with some ideas for what I want to draw, but when I'm not even doodling or making random sketches, it feels so pointless. Like everything else.
I'm gonna die here, I don't know why I bother staying alive at all. Other than I'm following basic instinct that tells me to survive.