Today was not easy at all. I say it was the hardest thing I had to do by far and this week will be testing me to my limits. I had to sign an order to have my mother placed in hospise care unit and sign a D.N.R. (AKA) do not resesitate form as wished by my mother. I got to talk to her one last time last Sunday and now she is non responsive and fading fast. Doctor told me she had a few days to maybe a week left. Doctor explained the cancer is really big and has consumed vital organs and is putting presher on the nerves in her stomach making it impossible for her to eat of hold in fluids. How I'm holding on is unknown to me emotion wise but I get my strength and energy from both God and my friends of the furry fandom. Them that know me you know who you are. Please keep me in you prayers and thoughts. I'm holding on as best as I can. All I can think of is wanting my mother's suffering to stop and have her find pease.