I get back to fa finally and more bad shit happens lucky me

One of my best friends who is like a second mom to he ( who happens to be my ex's mom) is moving to another state..i no shes happy and excited..but im sad cause ill miss her a super lot

Also my step dads father unfortunately passed away yesterday morning..he and i werent super close but my mom and younger brother are distraught and my stepdad is a broken man right now..his father has been sick for some time and apparently had a massive heart attack..i am sad because though we were not close he was a good man and always nice to me..and though my step dad and i don't get along almost at all..i care enough to feel for him..no one wants or wishes for a death in the family..life just sent death Another gift of llove to which death shall keep forever...

On a similar note my grandma (moms mom) told my mother the same day she felt god was calling her back to heaven that she was going to die and she felt it coming though the feeling subsided randomly..my mom tells me her mom and her (at a younger age) could see or feel spirits and it is kmown my grandfather still hovers in his home waiting for her(he passed away almost a year ago) this doesnt surprise me because i feel them sometimes*shrugs* but to feel like you going to die..idk..im scared to wonder..

If i seem edgy or quiet this is why :( im sorry i hate being and am not taking a hiatus just might be slow to reply..my head feels like its full of stuffing..